12 July, 2018

Thursday, 12 July 2018

I am here early because it has already been a busy day and the heat is making me stay inside right now.  :-)  I was out with the dogs earlier so I did a few chores and thought I was going to do whatever people do when the heat gets to them.  I think the next dog break will be a quick trip to the nearest tree.

I found a batch of ripe berries... well, they were dark and seem to be pretty ripe.  I am watering the vine bushes hoping that it will help make large sweet fruit for the picking season, which I think is mostly the end of July and August... not sure, but they are starting to get ripe.  I need to make a plan for canning or freezing them... and remembering the lessons of my first summer effort.

Been working on the budget... and the list of things it might be used to do.

Crafting is on the list after this.  I have more painting to do, and maybe some polymer clay molding... or some freehand efforts to make earrings or pendants.  I'm behind in my gift-giving, so I need to catch up ASAP (as soon as possible).  :-)

If I want to enter a watercolor contest, I have to get something done by the end of the month.  I'm not sure I am ready for a competition, but I might enter just for the experience.  Looking at the entries that were already submitted (online), it's a wide level of experience there... but, the sample is way up on the talent list!!!  It looks like a photo!!!  I keep reminding myself it is a process and I am just beginning.

I was browsing the "news" stories on my opening page a bit... Papa's Pizza and a misleading story content about the use of the "N-word" in sensitivity training... it would have been better to be clearer about the use of the word and why it was reported... not actually having to say it in full detail, but verify that a real problem existed and that the media was not misreporting for their own agenda purposes.

Brad Pitt and Katrina housing was another link I followed because housing in New Orleans is a constant reminder to me of the great problems we face in disasters.  Ten years later.... and still there is so much undone.  These are subtle signs about the financial health of our country at a lot of levels.  I played a video at the link, but without the audio, so I don't know exactly what was said.  It was an ET report, that's all I remember.  I also remember there was a Foundation attached to Brad Pitt and the housing cause.  The accusation was that his promise was still unfulfilled... I imagine he was a bit busy with his own trials since 2007.

I discovered a great photo of a shipping container house and I couldn't find it again after not being able to save it.  I did find out there is a container selling place right in my own area!!  I had no idea.  I have occasionally looked online for them, to see what the prices were like, but the companies were all far away.  Now I have found a local resource.  That means more hope for my own housing development goals through Working Together.

My quest to hold off on making some caramels is waning... I may break down and do some this weekend.  I'm not sure if that qualifies as Sabbath rest though... I forgot I am working on that task, too.  :-)  So many things to remember and figure out.

Well... that is my life so far today... with a lot of details omitted.  :-)   If I can get some more tasks off my list later, I will try to do that, but this is a 90+ degree day here... it will probably be hot way into the darkness of the night.  Next week those temps come back...  summer is here.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD be good to the poor who need Him, provide for their summer protections, help them with their daily lives and chores and hopes.

May the summer be filled with cool memories... maybe water fun, lots of working fans, air conditioners and paid electric bills, family that cares, friends and neighbors to look in on the homebound, and shared times of joy.

In GOD there is hope, and we all need to find Him in the middle of a struggling humanity that doesn't always see anyone or anything other than their own hurting hearts and lives.


11 July, 2018

Wednesday, 11 July 2018

It has been a long day.

I was looking for my Wednesday programs on OPB-PLUS about noon and discovered a new show.  This one is called "Articulate with Jim Cotter" and it was a short conversation with four people about their creative work... one a music producer that finds talent in Africa; one a photographer with an old style camera that uses real film; one an older black man that paints things that were big canvas paintings, murals, or both; and a letterpress artist with a huge old machine -- one I hope to get if I live that long.  :-)

I am just beginning to understand screen printing... so this would be amazing.  I saw a movie with Will Smith looking for people to help before he died, and one of the characters had an old letterpress machine... maybe more than one, I can't remember.  I once had an old mimeograph machine that I loved, and had plans for, but life happened and that went away.  I will figure out my art future as I learn more about different types of production.

START UP was on after that.  They had a segment on a California business and then a segment on an ex-social worker who became a photographer to make women look and feel good in photos...  No mention of her pricing was made, but it seems to be an all day event for each customer.  Pricey, I imagine. When they went over her start-up details, she had zero in the bank and began with $10K in credit card debt.  Cameras are very expensive... and computer systems to process digital photos.  I like to see the numbers to compare them to other businesses.

Finally, my last Wednesday program was BEADS, BAUBLES, AND JEWELS.  Multi-strand creations with crimps was the main theme, then there was a short segment on earrings, with instructions on how to make your own ear wires with a form.  I have seen some great YouTube videos on making your own ear wires... and I am still looking for the best tool I saw being used.  :-)  It helps me to think of designs I might want to try... watching other people create.

I was amazed to discover more blackberries getting ripe... just starting the process.  I have to get out there and check our vines to see what they have.  I am watering them to try to get better berries this year.  I have probably shared this before, but I have always remembered one instruction about growing fruits... make sure they have water when they are fruiting... that is when they need it most to become the best fruits.  I hope so.

I was also able to do some of my summer project -- eliminating the ivy patch in one part of the yard.  Well, not all of it, but most of it.  I still have a LONG way to go... but I am working on it.

The heat is doing me in... today I had to turn on the air conditioner.  The thermostat said it was 77 degree - INSIDE!  I had just come in from the outside and needed to find some way to cool down.  I shut the windows and turned it on and then had to rest.  It is hard to get old... a real learning process every day.

I continue to pray for the things I need.  And I work with what I have.  Faith is a difficult thing to understand when you are struggling...  you learn about GOD as you go through things... your faith grows as you see GOD work... it isn't a like a restaurant where you ask and get what you want when you want it, it is like asking for something at Christmas and waiting to see if you get it... kinda. :-)

Well, enough of that.  I need to go.  It's going to be an early bedtime tonight... I did way too much today.  I need to recover from it and start the rest of the list tomorrow.  :-)

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May we all find ways to reach out to those who are older, especially the home-bound and those in senior facilities.  We can glean a lot of good history and find out things we never knew about.

May GOD protect our vulnerable people from the overreach of the government and zealous people who think quality of life is only their definition of it.

May I do better at aging... I sure don't like it... and I don't think I do well with the process!  haha


10 July, 2018

Tuesday, 10 July 2018

Here I am again... doing the same things... finding routines to get things done...

Life is filled with repeating activities.  It is hard to find that ongoing excitement about household chores.  :-)

How is your life?  I think we always figure everyone else is doing everything we can't -- or don't want to do.  "They" always have a great life, we always seem to be struggling.

Today, I flipped through some links and ended up seeing a story about more suicides.  Why?  I wonder what their lives were really like if they were so miserable.  I followed a link to one of the people who died, in the news because she was part of a sordid-sounding reality series in another country.  Her younger boyfriend decided to follow her.  It is a huge tragedy to me.  People make their self-worth depend on public opinion, then it all spirals into misery... for them.

I guess it is because we never think it is possible to change our lives... we think that what other people have decided is success is what we are suppose to need.

I guess I have been thinking about singers and their attachment to fame.  Do they enjoy life because they get to sing, or do they enjoy singing because it makes them famous... sometimes rich... in the news.  When does our "passion" in life become our source of unhappiness?

I know it is hard to make a new life... but that is better than no life... than dying by your own hand.  In the future we can find a better happiness.  If we don't try, we find nothing.

I was listening to some sermon programs on the radio, over the weekend I think, and they talked about what happens when we die.  The Bible says we sleep, but current opinion says it is not what is known as soul sleep... well, there are parts that say those who believe go to sleep and those that don't go to hell.  At the judgment, the ones who are not written in the Book of Life go to the Lake of Fire.  They are two separate places... and we can't change our destination no matter how much we love someone else who may have gone to the other place.

In the Bible, when I was studying it to find my own answers, I noticed there are two specific states of being mentioned about the end of everything we know now.  One is called "Death" and one is called "Hell" -- both of these are thrown into that Lake of Fire at the final judgment process... along with Satan and all of his "helpers."  In the judgment, those who believe go to an eternity with GOD, in what we call heaven, which becomes a new place.  Those who are not going to make it into heaven so to the Lake of Fire for eternity.

I just wanted to show there is more than a simple Heaven and Hell in our future.

I think the state of Death is the sleep that the Bible talks about.  The reason it goes into the Lake of Fire is because Jesus has conquered death and we don't need to wait for the final judgment anymore.  For those of us who are going to be with GOD and Jesus in heaven, there is no more death.  We become like the angels is what the Bible says.  I'm not sure if that would apply to the lost... becoming like the angels that followed Satan, etc.

Some people say that Satan wins the battle for our lives and souls when we kill ourselves.  The reason is that there is no more opportunities to change, to make our lives better, to discover GOD's best plan for our lives, to go to heaven.  I suppose that people who really believe in GOD would not kill themselves.  I don't know.  I think GOD will know their hearts and will judge them with mercy.

There certainly isn't a purgatory to work off your sins during life.  And no one can baptize you into heaven after you are gone.  No matter how much we want our loved ones to go to heaven, there is no option for that once they are dead.

I didn't mean to get so sad, but it really hurts my heart when other people are suffering so much and they think death is the best answer to their problem.  If they would just give it some time, life would change, things would get better, they would be able to change the unhappiness into something that makes them appreciate their life.

Well, I have things I need to get done so I better end here.  If you are thinking that death is better than life right now, I pray that you will wait, think about what you really want your life to be, what is in your power to change, and how you can reach the things that matter to you... then start going in those directions the best you can.  I use to try to do one thing, no matter how small it was, toward my future every day... something... just to feel a forward momentum.

Give time a chance to make life better.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

Help us to know that every person in the world is struggling, trying to find their way though their own problems... help us to see that our problems can be solve, even if it means that life will be different, that we may have to change, and in the process discover things we never knew would make our life better.

Help us to see the hurt in others.
Help us to find a way to share, to listen, to help, to give, to take, to become better than we are now.
Help us to trust that GOD has a wonderful plan for our lives... and to seek Him about it.
Help us to find love in what we do each day... for us, for others, for the world.

Help us to be true, honest, hopeful, kind, generous, interested in others... when we get involved in the lives of others, we discover the good parts of our own lives.

In the holy Name of Jesus, these things I pray.  Amen.

09 July, 2018

Monday, 9 July 2018

A new week has begun... I have been a busy little thing today... for me.  :-)

I started doing some crafts yesterday and have continued today... still a lot of space problems so I'm trying to figure it out.  By the end of the week, I may have some products to sell... maybe... I am trying out some ideas adapted from videos I have seen.  By then I may have my photo issues figured out, too... what a week this MIGHT be!  :-)

A little yardwork today... big yardwork tomorrow I think... it depends on how I get this old body going. in the morning.

I am trying not to kill my plants in the summer heat... especially my fuchsia where the robin or robins live these days.  I think a Monday-Wednesday-Friday watering plan will work.  It should be good over the weekend.

In remembering "weekends," I hate to say I listened to my Bible CD over the weekend and heard some reminders about the Sabbath and GOD's opinions about it...  I need to figure out my food prep.  I heard the part about the manna in the desert and gathering twice as much only on the day the Sabbath starts (Friday for us)… and this is the only time their food lasted more than the one day.  I guess that is a clear sign to go back to the Friday food plan... making sure I have enough for the night and the day (Saturday).  I will take the liberty to use the microwave, etc... I hear some Jews have coffee or water prepped in their coffeemakers.   In another part of the Bible it refers to the fire they had to use to cook things... which was a major job in those days.  I will have to consider how much prep on Sabbath days is OK.

I also heard about tithing and more about the added "offerings" to give to GOD (via the work of the temple and sacrifices and sin...). I need to listen to those chapters again.  I think it was about three chapters on the CD.  Plus, I will need to look at them in an actual Bible.  :-)  I may be able to study again, I hope... it's been a long hard many years of a problem reading my Bible, getting to church, etc.  I continue to pray for GOD to deal with my needs.  I am sure He knows what to do about all of our problems... we just need to "trust and obey" what we already know.

I have managed my money for this month, mow I need to manage my budget!  I hope for progress... that is what matters to me right now.  Getting better at the process is my goal... the future will benefit if I can work out a way to change my habits and find better solutions.  What I really am saying is.... I need to figure out how to make it through the rest of the month until I get my retirement money again.  I hope I can find a way to sell something (by making something worth buying.  :-)  haha )

In August I can buy another lottery ticket if the prize is really BIG!

My monthly letters are coming along... mailed four more today and plan to finish four or more for tomorrow's mail.  I will be done with this month's list by the middle of the month I think...then I just need to focus on my sons... in jail, in prison.

I had wonderful blueberries today... my first for this year.  I made a small batch of rhubarb into something like jam... which I may use for toast or pancakes.  Finished off my small nectarines that were so good.  I have some OREO ice cream cones, so one of the weeks of July shopping I will buy some ice cream and treat myself to them.  I love ice cream cones... it's just the right amount most of the time.  If I want more, I can have a second, or a third, one.  Summer seems like a good time for these cold treats.  :-)   Food is big with me... can  you tell?

I happened on a list of 99 people who are newsworthy people who died so far this year... I went through it to see if I knew them.  I didn't know too many, mostly the older ones.  :-)   Some were so young.  It's not so bad when old people die.  We are on the other side of life and it's just a matter of days.  Young people make you think of all they will miss.

Well... I'm a bit tired so I will go.  I am glad I am doing this relatively early.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD help us all to honor Him with the respect He deserves and to be thankful for all the mercy He gives us in this life.
May we appreciate the little things and hang on through the hard times.
May or hearts be filled with all the goodness of GOD, and the great gift of just being alive.
I guess I really always pray for GOD's blessings for me and WT so I can get busy with the things I have been planning for so many years.

06 July, 2018

Friday, 6 July 2018

Today was a decent day... so I might as well post something...  It is Friday, and not a mandatory posting goal, but I don't always follow my schedule... I am "FREE" to post or not post if it comes up.

Now that you know all that, I was busy working on becoming an employer... again.  Every now and then I get motivated to see what has changed in the employer perspectives.  I have been working on a wage "cheat sheet" for making some budget guesses, and decided to empty my printer ink with copies I can look at over the weekend... copies of different aspects of being an employer... like hiring youth, people with disabilities, agricultural workers, independent contractors, and different Minimum Wages.  I also printed off some FAQs about paycheck details.   Now I have to wreck my budget some more buying a spare cartridge of ink.  That's just one of the little costly things that happen when you try to do something on a poverty budget.

It was very hot here today, so I didn't do much outside.  I have really been sitting at the computer too much, it is a problem for my body, and I may be in trouble for the next couple days... we will see.  Pacing is so important I am seeing.

My labor form took hours and hours to get everything placed on one sheet for making estimates and keeping track of possible work options... for getting things done by others.  I think I went through at least three formats... maybe more.

All that was until about 7:00 tonight... then I checked emails and social media to make sure I didn't miss anything important.

Now, I will post and turn this thing off for awhile!

In the search for more information on Smithfield Foods the other day, maybe yesterday, I was so devastated to learn that it is wholly owned by a Chinese pork company.  The closest I could tell was a 2016 transfer of ownership, but that was a guess.

This is part of my process of trying to see where I would put my time and energy if/when GOD provided my work.

So many of the things I want to do are the same things I've seen needed for years and years and years. I wonder why others don't already do them... and I wonder why GOD hasn't allowed me to start the process.  It is an ongoing misery for me... still not answered.

I guess most of the leading people of the Bible didn't have anything much in their life that was financially great.  Their faith is all we know about.  Why is that?  I keep wondering.

We all die eventually, and nothing goes with us... I've been hearing about that a lot in June, because it seems to be the theme at the end of the fiscal year for every ministry... you can't take it with you  (so give it to us)/

I guess my focus on business is part of that question... and other Christian businesses.  We don't hear much about them either... except when the enemy sues them to hurt their witness.

Wealthy people in churches, and anywhere I suppose, are the ones we all think must be GOD's source for their need.  The political parties do the same thing as churches do... attack the wealthy, expect them to give up their so they can have what they want.  In the end, we are all the same.

How do we know when we are coveting and not just wanting to accomplish a goal?  I don't seem to be able to find that line.

The love of money, is that wealth?  I don't think so.  It has something to do with how you use it.  I'm not sure what that means.  We are only required to tithe and can also give offerings to certain things.  So all those wealthy people aren't required to give up everything they have so you can have what you want... or the church wants... or the government wants...  

These questions plague every generation.  Why do some get so much and others have so little.  We can't all be wealthy, and we can't all be poor... what the difference is in GOD's view I am not sure.  The stories we learn are all filled with both good and evil sources of everything.  Satan tempted Christ with all the riches of the world... Satan used that comfort argument with GOD to attack innocent Job.  We believe GOD is able to make all things move on our behalf when needed... so, why doesn't GOD see that we are the ones who need that blessing.  :-)  Human nature... such a pain.

All this because I hate to see things not done that should be done... like helping small farmers keep their multi-generational farms.  Because I have ideas I think will work... and want to try them.  Because GOD has allowed things in my life and I don't know why... yet.

I guess this will be a pondering weekend... as planning for the future is part of my efforts.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May the answers to these very difficult questions find their way into our hearts and minds.  Amen.

05 July, 2018

Thursday, 5 July 2018

Here I am, later in the day, tired, and wondering what to say about today... it was one of those plain days that don't seem significant, but...

I managed to get a tree trimmed the way I wanted it, cleaned up a patch of ground I am working on, used the hose on some dirty boards, dry piles of debris, and some hot dusty chickens... which is always fun.  Finally remembered my hammer so I pounded in some loose nails on the sawhorses I need to use.  I think I need a metal cutter for the nails I am trying to remove from some boards for a working table outside... so I have to figure out what kind of cutter I need... I suppose a search engine is in my future.

I found a broken robin's egg below the nest that is near my window... and that is so sad.  I wondered if a squirrel climbed up there because I saw one coming on the porch the other day.  I suppose a squirrel could have done that.  I'm not sure what to do to save my little robin friend.

I suppose I ate too much... lots of butter on my popcorn and my corn on the cob... two avocados today, and that is good fat, but still fat I suppose... had a soda to quench my thirst at lunch... ran out of real coffee and had to take some aspirin with dinner... withdrawal pains ahead.  Yuk.

I wrote and mailed six letters today... so that was quite an accomplishment.  :-)  It's hard to think of that much excitement with a boring life like mine!  haha  I think I have about 15 more letters to go on my monthly list.

I took a nap from all the heat and yardwork and early mornings.

I cleaned up a bunch of my messy spaces and feel like I can start making some things... small things... I wonder what things.

Ordinary days are what we live.

I sent out an article from the Salvation Army magazine with my letters today.  I try to send what I call an "insert" with my letters, something interesting and meaningful.  It was called MOMENTS, and it was about all the little moments we miss when we are busy running around trying to get everything on our mental lists... my paraphrase.  The idea is that we need to notice those ordinary moments that might be very important to us or someone else.

I guess my moment for the day was the chickens and the hose.  :-)

I better go...  Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May our days be filled with things that make our lives better and affect the future of our world in a good way.
May we honor the equality among us as human beings as we respect the differences that make us each unique and amazing people.
May our goals become worthy of the time we spend on them... we can't get a moment back, we have to invest each one on things that matter.
May life find a way to bring us the good things that we need to achieve GOD's plan for our existence... through our efforts, through the kindness of others, through strangers who want to help us, through people we know, through things we never even consider possible... and may we use those blessings wisely.
May GOD be honored for the mercy He has on us in our defiance, in our ignorance, in our rejection of His love.
May we all find a way to live on this earth without hating anyone we disagree with.
and more....


04 July, 2018

Independence Day, USA, 4 July 2018

I better get this done before I get lost in the links online...

I just finished watching the documentary I recently bought called ANIMALS :: FRIEND OR FOOD? -- so, the emotions of the topic are still fresh.  I guess it was about the way we get our foods, what we decide to eat, how involved we can be in the process.  It was about the way you learn to farm and how our food is processed to eat... kind of.  In the end, the man in the film couldn't do any more killing of his food animals... but... that didn't mean he stopped eating meat.  He hired out the task.

I have often said I want to grow a bunch of chickens so I can have them processed by someone else so I don't have to know which chicken I am eating.  That is how I would solve that problem.  :-)

It's a film from 2003... quite some time ago.  The cover also says it won a bunch of awards.  I'm not sure it was that good, but it is an unusual "documentary" for the issues of food, surviving, meat eating, etc.

For the Fourth of July, I think the best thing you could do is to go to Focus on the Family's website and listen to their two-day presentation with Andy Stanley and Michael Youssef.  


So, make sure you find Tuesday's program first.

I usually watch the celebration/s on TV for the 4th... not sure I will find it tonight.  Macy's seems to be the only one in our area... 8-10pm here.   I love my country, don't always like its government, but am always thankful for being born an American... despite all the problems in life, in the world, in my America.  I think everyone loves their country, but maybe not their government's priorities.

I have mostly been busy trying to reorganize my things again, and getting my spaces and projects and supplies ready.  It was a day to make sure my bills were taken care of, so my budget for the rest of the month is pretty low...  of course, I always seem to make it stretch, change my priorities, or something.  I now have a personal mandate to get my items to sell online and see how they do.  :-)  Is this what they call motivation... not sure it works.

It feels like Saturday today... with the day off for others here and no mail, my routines are off.  I hope you are doing better.

I will get going now...I pray that America will find her way back to goodness and GOD... when so many people lose their moral values, it creates an environment of self-only people... and slowly becomes a place no one really wants to live.  Think about those places where power is the only thing that matters, where the amount of money you have is the gauge of your worth, and crime is the ruler instead of the needs of the people... it is decline of a nation in slow motion, the death of all that is good about America.

Without GOD as our moral authority, what takes His place?

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD help our country to find its way back to Him.
May our people see the importance of godliness in our daily lives.
May we all discover what matters most... in our lives and in our communal lives.
May life be good for those who love GOD.
May the future find us all in Heaven.

03 July, 2018

Tuesday, 3 July 2018

Here I am … up again just to get this done on the right day!  :-)  I can hardly keep my eyes open.  This will be a great post, right!  haha   I thought it would be a good idea earlier... just take a small rest...  I don't think I will try this again.

Today was a too much yardwork day... in the heat.  I am glad I got more done, but it is still a challenge to find the right way to manage the process.

In a few minutes it will be the Fourth of July... our celebration of Independence.  I was watching the news earlier and the newest way to celebrate is a drone event... I guess there was a half-time demonstration with it at a Super Bowl game and someone decided to make it their city's celebration.  Amazing!  So many of those little things making a moving design in the sky.  I would want to see it.  And it changes the fire danger of fireworks.  I wonder if it will become part of the yearly event, or every event, or... who knows where this development will lead.  I suppose you could do a home version of so many drones...  that would be fun.

I don't have much to live on this month... I better get going on my selling goals.  :-)   Today was a budgeting day.

I think this is going to have to be it for this post.  I will do better tomorrow.  If I can figure out how to do a good photo... I may share one tomorrow.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May I find the best way to get these goals done!  Amen.

02 July, 2018

Monday, 2 July 2018

I just spent a long time at christianbooks.com looking at their sale items... linked to from an email I decided to check out.  I am a sucker for sales, but I am also getting better at resisting them... most of the time.  I like to put all the things I might want to get into my cart, then I go through them at the end and decide how much I can spend, if I want to spend anything, and then go through the re-evaluation process.  This did take me some time... there were 9 pages of 50 items there... and I made the decision to go through all of them to see what they had available.

If I didn't have a budget to deal with, I could have ordered quite a few items there tonight.  I discovered they have "product videos" about the books, which I liked... good idea.  One was the author, another was more of a narrated story... but, I decided I like that idea.  I also discovered their version of a sneak peek... and checked out the table of contents for the books, and the text sample on some.  It also helped me to see if I REALLY needed to have that item.  :-)

Some of the things I noticed along my way were the topics shown, the number of pages, the years of publication, and the titles.  I really became aware of how important the titles are... in the process of choosing which ones to explore, the titles were about all that I had available unless I knew the author.  I didn't know too many of the authors because I never buy new books and don't follow all things Christian in the world.  Now that I am working on my own first book effort, these things had a lot more meaning to me.

I suppose it was more like research into the Christian market.

I didn't really browse the BANKER TO THE POOR book over the weekend.  It became something I didn't feel I needed to know in total.  I am kind of still in the process of exploring it randomly.  I found something called the SIXTEEN DECISIONS on a page and liked them.  I want to explore them more... I got "distracted" by other things today.  So I keep the book in view to prompt me in the direction of my goal for the book.  I think I want to copy the list of 16 items so far.  They seemed interesting.  I may go ahead and share them with you on another day... after I read that section of the book at least.  :-)

Time gets away from me when I get focused on something.

I do think I have a lot to get done. So I will get to bed now and see if I can do more tomorrow!

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD hear my heart and answer my prayers.
May the world find its way back to goodness.
May our lives mean something more than selfish consumption.
May we find our happiness in helping others with less than we have, with more needs than we have, and within our abilities.
May the days be warm and not too hot.
May we have the food we like to eat.
May we always share.
May our minds grow, our time be enough, and our hearts full of love.
May GOD help those who look to Him for their survival.

28 June, 2018

Thursday, 28 JUNE 2018

The time goes by so fast, I hardly see the day's list of things to get done until it is too late!  I better get this done before I get carried away with other things.

I watched my "new" used DVD/documentary called "FOOD CHAINS" today, and I think I have seen at least parts of it before.  I must have watched it on Netflix at some time.  I am glad I have it for my collection.  The migrant issue is something I care about.

I grew up in the Los Angeles area and saw some of the things that were affected by it, but I was a child so my impressions were of the hard work of these people... mostly in construction in urban areas.  I knew of the farm workers movement, but it was just another news issue to me then.  I don't really remember watching a lot of news as a youth...it just wasn't something us kids did.

My heart is concerned with suffering people and poverty.  It doesn't take a lot of information to see that the migrant workers are oppressed and abused, and that hasn't changed in my adult life.  I do wonder what has happened since the DVD and the people it shared with the world were made.

My own desire to build staff housing for Working Together led to my suggestion that the current immigration conversations should include the option for employers to commit to providing decent year-round housing for the people who do their "grunt work" in the fields, and in the factories, etc. - which would make the status of those workers legal. If they are facing abuse at their workplaces, they can at least find someone to help them without fear of deportation and jail and dangers for their families.  It won't solve all the corruption and greed in communities built around one industry, but it will offer some legal recourse for those being abused.

It has always been my opinion that the wage ladder begins at the bottom and then goes upward... in this issue, the farmworkers should all be paid a fair wage for a fair day's work...  in the US labor laws, travel time and waiting time for a job that you are hired to do is considered work time.  In the DVD it was stated that migrant families had to leave at 5am and didn't get back until 8 or 10 pm, I can't recall... but they only got paid for the hours they worked in the fields and were paid by each pail of tomatoes they picked and delivered to the truck.

I cringed at that information, especially where mothers were concerned.

It seems the "company housing" offered for seasonal workers was so high in rent charges they had to have 15 workers in each one.  Is that right?  I don't think so.  I doubt anyone would want their family put into this kind of situation.

If I had money....  I think I would do what I could do to change the system with a new work of my own... Monsanto issues with seeds and the destruction of farmers is another agricultural battlefield, with the pesticide issues for workers involved in both controversies.  To make new farms without these terrible practices would be a great way to do battle...  To create smaller farms, to create migrant worker co-ops, to create private lending options for the small farm needs, to do whatever is necessary to make this problem right is my idea of a fight.  

I wonder if that is why I haven't been able to gather any money to do all this...  hmmmmm, could be, I don't know.

I have been thinking about these problems in America for some time... this film just reminded me of the differences in viewpoint of corporations and the "little people," especially when it comes to those profit figures.  When I see a huge multi-national company is making billions in "profits" and the ones fighting to get some of that money, I have to wonder what the real details are.  Does that "profit" include the expenses of the year, or the needs of the next year... the wages, overhead, equipment, stock, growth, etc...and any company with shareholders has to pay a dividend to them... how much is really profit, and how much is really business funds.

If these profits are used to pay ridiculous wages to anyone in the company, then there is a problem.  If these profits are distributed fairly, to each level of operations, and each job, and each location, how much they make is not a matter for discussion.  Companies are created to make money.

I hope the situation changes, but I doubt it will.  Human nature has to find someone else to degrade in order to feel better about themselves.  If these are people who claim to love GOD, their decisions will be judged by GOD.  If you read the Bible carefully, you will see that GOD LOVES the poor, the fatherless, and the stranger... and cattle (who knows why!)… and He has promised to judge those who hurt and abuse these people He loves.  In watching this film again, I have been wondering how GOD will judge these corporations who do not stand with what GOD says is right to do.  I wonder how He will judge America for it's ungodly choices, too.

So, now I move on to the next thing to do... and all the serious issues that matter to me will go into my history...  just waiting to be resurrected again, hoping that some day I might be able to do something to help change the world in this arena and others.  One person, what can I do?  I don't know, I just keep looking for it.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD help us to see ourselves as He sees us.
May we choose to care.
May our lives mean more than money.
May America stand for better things than it does now.
May I be allowed to be part of the solutions I see to some of these issues.

27 June, 2018

Wednesday, 27 June 2018

I decided I better get this done early, my body is already heading into the go-to-bed-early stage...  :-)  Life is so much fun.

I got the book I ordered :: Banker to the Poor, by Muhammad Yunus, who is stated to be the founder of the Grameen Bank, which I think the book is about.  I decided to buy it because I saw a video of a young woman who discovered it as a teen and it inspired her future in the same direction... financing people who would never be approved for help by a regular bank.

My copy is Copyrighted in 1999 and 2003... the notes say it was originally published in 1997 by another person, JC Lattes... I could make a joke here,  but it probably would not go over here.  :-)

Money options and poverty have been a quest of mine since I went into the welfare system and couldn't find any way out that worked for me.  I discovered classes for something in the business cycle... in the Los Angeles area so many years ago.  I have talked about this before... it is my example of what exists... or, what did exist.  Crowdfunding has changed a lot, but there still are problems for those who don't have the ability to access crowdfunding.

In that experience I decided that there had to be real money at the end of the class.  What levels, I am not sure.  I think anything would have helped back then.  The classes were about formulating a plan for your business.  Then you had to go find funding from somewhere with your plan as part of the process.  Poor people, the kind of poor people who don't have anything, would never have that option, to be approved anywhere.

I should say that the video I watched said the company they operate puts people through a process before they can be approved for any money, including creating minimum partnerships in the lending group... three people was the minimum.  I'm not sure right now all the details of their loan process, but it wasn't easy... like ask and receive.  There was a process and they had to be approved.  The examples they showed were mostly women, which is the group most in need of financial help everywhere, but they also grew their businesses over time and didn't need the special financing anymore.

I guess it is dangerous to succeed in some countries because the good loan people were damaging the loan shark's business... the lenders were actually threatened by them.  I think that would be a hard reality to deal with.  I discovered that loan sharks require 10-40% interest PER day or month, I don't remember.  I think it was day, but I'm not sure.  No wonder people are running from loan sharks.

I guess my desire through Working Together was to create some kind of options for surviving, too... but at an individual level... for families, for communities, for churches, for anyone.  I decided membership was the only way to apply this equally, and then decided larger loans can be handled with a program that would be for members, either Christian or Public members.

Poverty is a long-term problem that doesn't go away in one government budget cycle.

Well, the author (Yunus) wrote other books since, and it says he won the Nobel Peace Prize, so it must be doing good work still.  One of these days I will check on it, but I have other things to do right now.  I hope to browse the book over the weekend.


I have been trying to remember all the things I did today, in case there was something more to share, and I couldn't get past the normal everyday life things.  I did watch a webinar replay that took over an hour, on creating courses to sell or provide for free viewing online.  It was a beginning look at the process.  The site is called  TEACHABLE (.com) and it offers a structure to learn the process. I took notes, but I wish I knew how to do screenshots... that would have helped a lot.  :-)

Once you see these webinars, you notice how other people are approaching you, and seeing they must have watched this too... or be one of their customers!  haha  I guess that is how it will be...

I liked some of their "lists" of how to go about this outreach, but I didn't agree with everything.  Some of the pricing is affordable for the future, but I'm not sure how I want to proceed in the video and teaching and course opportunities... I have to decide between YouTube or another site that does video access... and other places I already know about.  Each option offers different benefits, and you have to find the ones you can afford and handle.  I hope to make a decision when I am clearer on how I want to proceed with Working Together or my personal goals.

I guess, right now, I am still trying to find my "start-up funding" for Working Together, trying to find added income for my retirement needs (less than $400 doesn't go far), and have to get my legal issues for my senior years figured out.  That takes all my time...and prayers... and energy.

I know GOD has a plan for all this, I just wish I had a better idea what it was.  :-)

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD bless the good people and help them to see the needs all around them.
May GOD help me to do more of the things He has put in my heart to do.
May GOD reach out into this world and comfort those who are suffering.
May GOD find a way to make His Presence known to those who are searching for answers that only He can provide.

Help us to be the ONE BODY that will provide for all of us. Amen.

for Tuesday, 26 June 2018

Here I am, again...  I kept putting off the post and then I was too long at the computer and couldn't sit anymore... so this is the post I wanted to write yesterday...  we keep learning our limits as time goes by.  :-)

Let's see, I was doing a lot of online research when I planned to do my post... so I discovered that QUIKRETE (quick-crete) has more than one kind of concrete... amazing.  I had my son pick me up a bag, which I thought there was only one kind, and then I went online to find out how much cement it would make.  The writing on the 60-pound bag is small!!  I thought it would be easier to look online, but couldn't find anything I needed to answer my question.  I did see a bunch of videos on how to use the concrete types for different applications... so now I have a better idea which bag I will choose next.  I might try out for their "one-bag-wonder" competition... once I get a better idea about how this stuff works.   :-)

I finally went looking for some photo requirements for my ETSY shop (https://www.etsy.com/shop/work2gather) and explored the newest info at the Seller's Handbook... I have a bunch of pages to read today!  I updated my shop announcement, created a new coupon for July, when I hope to have some items listed, and looked at all my account details... who can keep track of all those things!!  So I keep trying to figure out a print system so I can put them in a file for future reference.  Digital is nice, but it isn't going to help me if everything online disappears.  I figure keeping print and digital will help cover different problems.  I just have to get it all organized and be able to stay in one place...  a lifetime problem.

My packages arrived yesterday...  first my little mini-SIZZIX machine... which I tried out to see how it works.  It is going to help me accomplish many of my creative goals, but not all.  I need to buy a larger version for the bigger projects.  I have to do a bunch of experimenting to find the items I want to keep doing for sales income.

I also received my JOEY FEEK music CD so I listened to that a couple times.  I think I want to get one of her HYMNS collections for listening over and over.  I tend to just put the music on and have it on "repeat" for the entire CD.  I would rather have this CD accessible for the song I most wanted, and have a fully Christian music selection available for my background music.  :-)  It was already something I was thinking of getting, but couldn't afford yet, so it's already on my list of things I want.

The other package I received was the documentary FOOD CHAINS, which I haven't viewed yet.  I hope to do that today or tomorrow.

I was exploring the company that created DIRTY ENERGY to see how much some of the previewed videos were and what they were about, but it's a hard company to share.  It promotes some issues that Christians cannot agree with, so I am still trying to decide how to handle issues like this. If I get to the point of wanting some of their other videos, which are on issues that matter to me, I will figure it out... for me... for what matters in my life.

I am working on my budget for July... so wiped out already, but there is always hope to make some sales online!  haha  This is the challenge.  How to get all the processes of selling online into a manageable group.  I really look forward to winning the "lottery" and hiring some help!  :-)

Did I tell you I have been drinking green tea for some time now... I ran out of ground coffee, then I ran out of my special instant coffee, so green tea became the beverage for me!  Now I am almost out of green tea.  I do have a last-resort back-up... so I hope it doesn't come to that.  :-)   I just remembered, I may have enough ground coffee in the bottom of my container to make a few cups, in a dire emergency.  Only three more days until the end of JUNE, and the start of the JULY budget.  Will I make it!?!  Only GOD knows....   haha

Well... I am sure I am forgetting something, so I will try to make a note of it if I remember during today and add it to the post for Wednesday.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

Every day I grow more concerned about the future of America, of Christians, of poor people all over the world.  I wish I could do more... I wish I didn't have to think about the terrible things that sin brings into our lives... I wish I had all the answers.  Right now, in my situation, all I can do is pray... and I hope that GOD hears my prayers and sends the help we all need.

May GOD be kind to those who love Him.
May we, His people, be wise in our choices in the midst of increasing needs.
May the enemies of GOD be kept from succeeding.
May our hearts grow in goodness.
May we find our way to a better future.
May we all be able to stand in faith when the time comes to choose.
May our churches gather together for strength and to create a way to protect each other in every community.  May GOD save the best of our resources for the Body of Christ.

25 June, 2018

Monday, 25 June 2018

I just finished watching one of my new DVDs... it arrived today.  "Dirty Energy" - about the Deepwater Horizon oil disaster in the Gulf of Mexico.  It is always hard to discover how little your government really cares about you... and how the big corporations, like BP, seem to control the country.

I don't know how much of that is true, the part about corporations controlling all of America, but it is a big wake-up moment when you discover that ordinary people have little meaning in our country or the world.  It was so hard to see the effects of the oil spill and hear the promises they made (again) and then discover it is just another repeat of previous examples.  There were segments with at least one person who was impacted by the Exxon Valdez oil spill in Alaska so many years ago.  I think she said it was 24 years later and Alaska hadn't yet recovered from their disaster.  The documentary was trying to show the things they had in common for the environment, the people, and the finances... and the government.

My interests are in the effects on our food supplies and water sources.  Seeing the photos, hearing the effects, discovering the details about the aftermath... it is frightening to me.  The oceans bring all that pollution to every other part of the globe, eventually.

In the documentary, they reported on deformities and tumors in the shrimp over two years after the disaster, and I remember hearing that the seafood had "recovered" by then, but the biologist pointed out that when you go to the market to buy shrimp, you would not see the deformed parts or the tumors or the things you would never eat if you did know.

This is our government's concern for us...  the priority is the economy, the taxes that business brings to the government, the money to get elected, the desire to keep your job, the apathy for what is right or wrong, and the fact that the people who are being destroyed can't afford to go to Washington (DC) or their own state governments to fight for twenty years just to lose.

It is a difficult moment to realize that your life depends on a system that is overwhelmed with more problems than it can handle, so yours is meaningless.

How will we make America the great country it use to be?  We are not the same country.  The definition of "great" is probably something we need to talk about first.

The news was filled with tariff issues today... I was able to see a lot of channels of news today.  The media reports more about topics that are against tariffs, and that included the announcement that Harley Davidson was going to blame tariffs for their decisions to move some of their business to the European areas where they sell many of their products.  The media doesn't focus on the economic decline of America caused by what I believe is called "trade imbalances."

In my quest for Working Together's future, I realized that transportation and shipping might not be available in the future for Christians.  To me, the only reasonable solution was to make each member region self-sufficient.  That led me to see the wisdom of having business operations in other regions that serve just that region.  I think it would be wise for Harley Davidson to build a new factory in Europe, and sell it's products to those places that are within that continent.  The US factory can sell to US customers. Other people can decide if they want to ship from the US or from the European factory.

My reason for wanting to go in this direction is also because of the differences in currency values.  I figure pricing in other regions will be based on the costs to produce the products that are created and sold there.  It can make things better for everyone.

I think locals in other places need to benefit from the businesses that exist in their location... just like we want to benefit from their existence.

I often wonder how we can find what is right instead of what is only good for the business... like the BP and Exxon recoveries.

This has been a big day for serious thinking... I will be continuing this conversation in future blogs, I am sure.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD find us doing more of what is right than what is best for us.
May we see that the damage we do to the world is the same as killing out kids and grandkids.
May we all look for better solutions, help each other in times of trouble, and be thankful for our life.
May GOD be the focus of our decisions.

22 June, 2018

It's LATE on Thursday, 21 June 2018

I am starting this post at about 11:40pm -- having gone to bed earlier, and been roused about 10:45pm.  I wrote some of my monthly letters and decided I better get to this, too.

I have two relatives that do photography.  I came across a free guide from 2017 through teachable.com about 17 ways to make money online and thought they might like to see the page about selling your photos for $5 each.  I have no idea if they already know about it, but I made a copy of that page and sent it to them.

I still need to check out the site myself.  I am assuming they offer photos for people to use with online creations... maybe products... probably for advertising... whatever stock photos are used for.  I don't know if they let the photographers follow their photos after selling them to this site, but it could be a great way to see what sells, and later I thought that attribution with the photos might be a link back to them.  I have to find out what they really do... I hope it isn't just buy the photos and your connection to it is GONE!  :-)

Teachable is an online course-making site.  I eventually want to get into those kinds of things, after I get my products figured out, so I was checking on it.  I think I was listening to a business video with a link, or it came through an email.  I am learning all these connecting options as I look for info for myself.  I see the missing parts more easily... and will remember them when I get to my own creations.

They offer a lot of free materials about the process of creating a course for online selling... and that is nice.  I just downloaded most of it and have to sort through it.

With all my other research, it is a lot of online reading.  I prefer print copies, but I can't afford all that ink.  It's a challenge for me to go through this process of learning what is available online.  I do what I can, and then (often) have to wait for more money, etc.

Kindle publishing has been in my plans for so many years... it is what I planned to do at Amazon... books, PDFs, Kindles...  I am really beginning to see the process may be achievable now.  I hope so. I am still working on what to publish first -- for myself -- but it is coming along.  I have several publishing goals, but not sure what to do on Amazon and what to do elsewhere.  My perspective is about getting all my lifetime plans out for the world to think about... before I die.  :-(  When I started this journey I thought I would be farther along than this... I seriously should have been a billionaire by now and have my WT regions established.  So, we have to find out what GOD had in mind....

I am working on a booklet for one of my son's writings.  He is in prison and I realized that we could do this as a way to help him create income for the future... and now.  Inmates are currently limited in how much money they can access, but I hope to advocate for a better system... higher wages, income options online (I call it an eBay for inmates.), making payments for their restitution, taking care of their families, learning budgeting for when they get out, saving money for when they are released, donating to their own favorite causes, gifts, and taking care of their own needs... hygiene, food, clothes, etc.

Well... midnight just passed...  welcome to Friday, 22 June 2018....

I have been trying to do more yardwork again... trying not to overdo it and get sick again....  I had to "rest" several times yesterday and today, but I am getting it done a little at a time... when it isn't TOO hot.  :-)   I am seeing the year after year improvement goals that ownership allows...  wanting my own little piece of land to build on the future for myself...   Maybe I can sell enough to buy that land finally.  If GOD allows me to live, and hire help, "it could happen."  :-)

I think I need to eat something and get back to bed...  I will probably be talking at you tomorrow, but I'm not sure, so...

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD be kind to those who love Him and trust Him to provide for their needs... Amen.

20 June, 2018

Wednesday, 20 June 2018

I am almost finished reorganizing my goal workbook/s... moving things around for better use, and getting things done, I hope.

Mailed my three letters this morning, have three more waiting to be written.

Tried to do some yardwork, but had to stop because of the heat... however, finished one pile, started another, and trimmed up one tree.  Something.  Now I can feel accomplished, right?

I have been thinking most of the day... about writing books, and what to write about... it is sometimes easy for me to go on and on and on, but how to make the details work for one book, that is what I am contemplating.  Just seeing a possible reality to my goal to write... that is amazing to me.

I miss my Publisher program... I am trying to figure out how I can make a document that will work with the upload formats I am learning about.

I think I am going to have to search out my OLD camera for making photos, after all my struggles... this is a pit.  I bought some tablets to take better photos and get them uploaded for selling.  Now, I have this used computer and it seems the best option to use for making listings, so the photo problems have returned.

eBay has a free amount of listings I can do per month... well, June, at least, I think.  I am trying to get my listings up for it.  To edit photos for this process, I think I need a better computer.

It is a very ongoing problem.  If I had the funds to go out and solve my issues, it would be such a big issue... I am looking for alternative to fit my current situation, which also seems to change too often.  Life is a series of problems that need to be fixed...  I hope I have found a path that is at least workable.

By Monday I hope to have this worked out... keep watching my shops, you will find out before next week's posts.

I discovered an amazing fundraiser attached to Facebook a bit ago... they are raising money for getting immigrant kids back with their parents... when I got to the fundraising page, it said they had collected over 13.5 MILLION dollars of a 15M goal.  That is great.  I posted about it, but also added that I hope there is an oversight process for the funds... on how it will be spent.  It seems like a lot of money, but it goes so fast when legal issues are involved... lawyers, fees, travel, housing, etc.  I'm not sure what else, but money goes fast in great needs, so I hope it is carefully dispersed.

Here is the link to the page ::

I think the news story about the 8-month old child taken away from its mother was the last straw... any group or government needs to make it the absolute last option to separate kids from their parents.  In the immigrant crisis, the issues of non-parents and abuse and criminal intents make the problem harder to administrate, but those situations must be few.  I hope the kids will be made safe and we can find better answers.

I made a comment on a post, yesterday I think, about the need for non-money-costing solutions for the government.  I think the bigger complaint is the welfare burden attributed to immigrants at some level.  If we can take away that cost burden, it may create a way to find better solutions.

I have always believed that similar people groups already in the US would be willing to support their people.  I have seen that the Mexican people do.  I don't know about everyone else.  Sponsorships can be created, with a large file of biological identifiers taken in the process of registration (DNA, retinal scans, fingerprints, voice records, video records, etc.), there could also be a yearly renewal.

Another great option for everyone in agriculture and food processing and related manufacturing industries that exploit immigrants, would be to require employers to request the workers they need and be required to provide housing (year-round) for them and their families as part of the program.  This links the jobs, housing, security, oversight, visitor status, government records (DNA, etc.), and other safeguards for the immigrants and the US government.  Employers need to be responsible for these families, and immigrants need to be legally here to prevent employer abuses.

My motivation for all these ideas is the reality of a global environment.  It won't be long before people will travel between countries like we travel between states.  We are heading into a National ID process, which will change a lot of fraud and crime and duplications of things... so it is better to think ahead than to wait for problems to happen.  Right?

I have been so agitated by the tax issues we argue about all the time I have been thinking I need to write my first booklet on taxes... how to change the system and make it fair for everyone.  I wonder if I can keep that conversation below 100 pages... I'm not sure.

I have to get going... the life I live is calling me away.  :-)

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

Pray for wisdom, strength, character, honesty, compassion, mercy, and generosity for all of us.  Amen.

19 June, 2018

Tuesday, 19 June 2018

Portland, Oregon has the country’s highest number of people who don’t identify with any faith

That's what it said in my email from BGEA (Billy Graham Evangelistic Association)… even the churches are affected by the gay issues here...  Prayer... we do that a lot here... hoping it will change the environment...  but it is a hard place to be... a Christian.

I guess I have wondered what it is like for the Jews here, too... but I have no idea.

Knowing and proving are two different things... that's the reality of life these days.  What some call "activism" others call a crime.

Enough of that... it's a sad topic.

I have been trying to figure out how to write and publish a Kindle book.   I went exploring at Amazon yesterday to find out more current info on the formatting process, then wound up buying an eBook about the topic... It was my FIRST purchase of an eBook, so I decided to stay in the 99-cent range.  Today I went back and purchased another 99-cent Kindle book.  Both were about publishing online.  The second purchase had a link to some kind of video course, so I will be checking on that tonight.  It is helping me discover some of the internet options I don't know about yet.  This new book has a chapter on formatting, so I need to read that to get an idea.  Both books are (c) 2017.  I was surprised that some of the links in the first book are already inoperable.  I don't know about this second book.

Book One :: Penniless Publishing : How to Publish a Book Without Spending a Cent
By :: Ed Lewis

Book Two :: The Easy 9-Step System to Your First Book in 30 Days
By :: Nuno Almeida  (from Portugal!!!)

I decided to look through this second Kindle book before going for a new book especially about Kindle publishing that is more expensive.  I am trying to understand how these this work.

Buying is easy!  Writing a good book is my challenge... something meaningful.  Not sure what to focus on first, but I'm trying to decide as I go through these copies.

I was able to get three of my monthly letters done today... maybe I can get some more done before the mailman gets here tomorrow.

My expected purchase from eBay didn't show up today... not sure why.  I am excited to see what they look like (dies for cutting things with a machine of some kind)… I want to get one of those Sizzix machines... I'm trying to decide which one, and if I can get a used one, and how much money I will need.  I also ordered some embossing folders to experiment with.  :-)  

Christmas is coming fast... I hope to get this all worked out by September!

I ordered a DVD about establishing a small farm or backyard garden... from a long time ago.  I am hoping it has some useful information in it.  I have never seen one like this before.  I am anxious to get it, along with another DVD that is about whether animals are a food source or more like a pet.

I also ordered one about the Deepwater Horizon disaster... wondering what it says.  I finally watched the movie, maybe the end of last year.  I am not sure what this DVD has on it, so it will be interesting to find out.

In the quest to build my food documentary collection, I ordered one called FOOD CHAINS.  The garden/farm one is part of that quest, too... and maybe the Animal one.  My goal for this year is one a month... I am behind in that quest, so I ordered these three about food.

Another goal I decided to achieve was getting a copy of Joey Feek singing "That's Important to Me" on a CD or DVD.  I finally found out which release it was on, so I bought a less expensive copy on eBay.  I hope it is a good copy.

You might think my June budget was in shreds... and you would be right.  :-(  But, I am already working on the recovery process.

Well... that is my world right now... trying to get things done, figure out solutions to my personal challenges, organizing my goals, praying for lightning bolts from heaven for some issues, and looking to GOD for my needs.

I wondered again today if the battle is really about the power of GOD to intervene... I suppose that is always the issue for human beings, but not always the issue for GOD.  His Plans are not our visions.  It is the submission to authority challenge... who do we believe is in charge... can we accept it when they don't want to do the things we want them to do...  I suppose this is a daily battle.

I have to fight my way through this all the time...
It is not an easy battle.

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May we all find our path to the future without destroying the lives of others.  Amen.

18 June, 2018

Monday, 18 June 2018

My goodness... what a long weekend...  I get busy with reading and research and one thing leads to another...   I was going to post several times, but always got distracted by something else.

This morning... a long emotional ride on the gay political express...  there seem to be stories all over the internet news, at least the ones I see,  There are lots of programing issues with content control... it can work a lot of different ways.  If you are against something, it seems you can be automatically "sensitized" with tons of content about the thing you dislike, especially if it relates to homosexuality and the causes related to it.

I browsed through a story about public people with kids claiming their status in the gay community.  I found it sad.  I know there are forces beyond my ability to deal with that work to push my sons into the gay lifestyle, including prison, but I continue to pray that GOD will win this battle.  Because my children make bad choices doesn't make them not my children.  I have to find a new normal when they are addicts, when they go to prison, and when the world of those who hate GOD (and my faith) leads them into things that are not godly.

What is a hate crime?  Based on my personal experience, I would say it is when someone goes out of their way to cause damage to another person's life and family because they disagree with their views.  They are purposely causing harm... whether it is a gay person against a person of faith, or a Christian against someone they disagree with... which could be more than just the gay issue.

I understand that domestic violence lives in the gay community as well.

I guess we all have seen that adopting when you are gay is not a guarantee you will be a good parent... murder / suicide happens to many families... is it a gay issue or a personal issue?

I know addictions happen in the gay community as well.  Addictions cause problems beyond our ability to deal with... including sexual prostitution, deviance, rape, and more.  Are these consequences because they are part of the gay community or because they are a Christian or because they are human beings with problems?

It's an impossible space right now.

Children are influenced by those around them, by the people who mean the most to them, by manipulators, by those who want to hurt them and not be found out, by media, by books, by conversations, by all the things that make up their lives.  The normal of a Christian home is a different normal from a gay family's home.  When we have conversations about what is normal and what is a crime (abuse), those conversations are different.  Homes with addiction issues have characteristics that appear to be normal, but are not.  If often takes a long time to recover from our childhoods, no matter what the individual problems were that we faced.

What is "normal?"

It is a hard word to define because there is a wide range of activities and perspectives that are normal for the human being... and that is not even taking into account the religious and cultural details of what would be called normal in different groups of people.

I found that the Bible held more answers about what is healthy for human beings, and that seemed like a great "normal" to me... healthy, good, balanced, reasonable, mutually beneficial... if you can find others who also see the wisdom of GOD and are growing in those directions.

I didn't become a perfect person when I became a committed Christian... my life began to grow into a better space.  I discovered right and wrong, and tried to become more of what was right.  I believe this growth process continues until we die.

We can look at our natural body and see that it was created to be united as male and female.  We can see that procreation requires a male and a female.  We can see that the differences are important in creating and protecting the natural family unit.  Men have certain traits, women have certain traits, and when they perform their duties in the family, the family is helped to survive... to create new generations of families.  This makes the world continue.

We find out from GOD that monogamous relationships are best... one man and one woman for one lifetime.  This protects us as individuals and as families.  We can see that our other adaptations away from this have caused great harm to society and history and generations.  Because we choose to do things differently does not make the original plan wrong...  GOD gave us free will, and we suffer the consequences of our choices.  All the broken lives create what we have as a world right now... and that isn't even part of the other effects of humanity... greed, lust, power, sex, violence, addictions, etc.

So, what is a hate crime?  If a gay person does something to hurt my life, isn't it still a hate crime?

Let me know what you think... are Christians the only ones doing hateful things?

Until next time,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May the GOD I love find a way to provide for the protection of His people.
May the world become a better place to live.
May the forces of hate and evil be made public so we can deal with them.
May the love of GOD be seen in the media.
May we find a way to protect the future and the rights of each person.
May our lives become better than we think they can be.
May Truth become our goal.

15 June, 2018

Friday, 15 JUNE 2018

I am finally here!

What to share on my journal blogs is quite a challenge... In the world of repeat messages, I am seeing the strain of "dead air time" and having to create a constant stream of "sermons" -- the two things I have been thinking about with my writing challenges and goals... the media, and the church.  

I am also thinking about what to write for selling... books, articles, mini-books, zines, and whatever else I discover has some sales potentials.

I was doing something online and ended up at an eBay (this link goes to my shop) page with an old wringer-style washing machine... where I then discovered there are still hundreds of them in existence.  I was amazed.  I may actually be able to find and buy one someday!  I still remember helping my grandmother in the basement of her farm... doing laundry there was a lot different than doing laundry now...  I was in love with the rolling thing that squished the excess water out of the clothes.  :-)  Been wanting one of those machines since then.

If I remember right, she had to fill the tub with hot water, add the laundry soap, put each article of laundry into the tub (that was agitating -- with no lid!), decide how long it needed to become "clean" and ready for the next step... I think the roller squeezer thing (the wringer) then took out the soapy water so you could put the soapy laundry into a tub of "rinse water."  Eventually, you got the laundry to the clothes line to dry.  In the snowy winters, the line was across the basement...several different lines hung from somewhere.  I don't know where... I didn't care about those things as a child... I just remember the rows of drying clothes.

I remember everything had to be ironed after it was dry.  In our family history, that meant hand sprinkling water on the item, rolling it up, then putting it into a plastic bag until it got ironed.  I think the clothes got put in the freezer if it took too long to get to it.  I think ironing was one of the "chores" for older kids... probably the girl kids... who can remember all that now...but that was how things were done back then... somewhere in the 1950's and 1960's.   :-)

All I want is the washing machine.... or the wringer system if I can't have the whole machine... I discovered one over a pail once... but couldn't afford it.  My life wasn't stable enough for owning it then... it would have been lost to the hazards of poverty anyway.  

I hope I can find my own space soon, something that will last for the rest of my life, something of my own, secured, safe, my " final resting place " in this life, so I won't have to lose all those things I tried to build my life with... again.  I need space for my crafting, and computing duties, and shipping, and life... permanent space... not something I continue to fear will be lost because of my finances... and now my age and health.

All these memories keep rising up again... and I am still not where I want to be.  I don't have much time left, I guess GOD will have to do something soon if I am going to find the answer to all my prayers.

I briefly discovered something called a "vision board" when I was looking at things online.  I tried to find out more about it, but didn't see much.  I looked for examples... didn't find any good photos.  :-)  I will try to check out Pinterest (this link goes to my Pinterest page to start) for some photos over the weekend, if I remember.  What I did see seemed to be like affirmations on social media posts... more of a positive thinking board.  Maybe like my "inspiration wall" concept... making a collage of things that matter to you... that inspire you... that represent your goals.

In reading some of the "affirmations" and their details, I was reminded of my goal process with Brian Tracy... the 30-day exercise where you write out 10 goals in the view of already being achieved.  That means saying "I am driving X car, in blue, with leather seats, cruise control, etc., and loving it!" instead of saying "I want a car."  I don't know if that is the best example, but you can check out Brian Tracy's goal stuff online... at briantracy.com and YouTube, (this link goes to my YouTube channel with some of his videos on it)  and maybe other places.  It was quite an interesting view of goal statements when I first discovered it.  I still have my CD's by him from a long time ago, and I listen to them every now and then.  I love the title of one ::  Change Your Thinking, Change Your Life  --  it still inspires me.

The other day I was checking on Kindle books again and almost bought one... a short inspirational book by someone I think is historical, but don't really know... I wasn't familiar with the name.  I discovered that "short reads" at Kindle/Amazon are under 100 pages... that became my goal for my first book effort.  I had been thinking in those terms already, but finding the "number" on the Kindle info validated my own thoughts on the topic. I discovered audible book options, too... and their option to self-publish in print mode. (I didn't check on the costs yet... again...)

Now... what to write about...  I don't know if I am already on the other side of my desert trial and have enough inspiration to encourage others yet.

So much to think about.

Well... I think I will get going for today... still have a lot to do.  The Sabbath begins at sundown... and I am still working on how to honor it in my life.  :-)   Change takes time... a long time.

Until the next time I meet you here, GOD willing,
In Christ,

Deborah Martin

May GOD watch over all of the good people, especially those who love Him and are on their way to salvation, children, old people, those in deep need, and me.  :-)