19 October, 2017

Thursday, 19 October 2017

Yes, I did find some great words to share with you from the book I was reading until this morning... 21 Unbreakable Laws of Life, from Max Anders.  Here are the two passages I felt most important to share...

On page 193, the chapter on Truth...
"Our society is sick because we are drinking from a polluted water supply of truth.  Into that water supply has been dumped lies, inaccuracies, misconceptions, runaway individualism, the demand of rights without responsibilities, selfishness, sensuality, and a conviction that my happiness is more important than yours.  And, as we drink from this polluted water supply, we are becoming morally ill, just as we would become physically ill if we were drinking real water from a reservoir containing filth, waste, and disease.

"I am persuuaded that the reason many people do not believe in absolute truth is because they are free from moral obligations imposed by society and don't want God putting any back on them.  They like their freedom.  But they are like a dog who has broken his chain and thinks he is free, only to run out into the street and get hit by a car."

Both of these paragraphs are really important to think about... our source of information, and are we really free without God.  I am especially impacted by the sentence about the dog who thinks he is free.

On another page, in another chapter, I found another important passage I wanted to share.  This is from the chapter on faith, page 202.
"This is a crucial thing to understand.  We do what we do because we BELIEVE it will make us happy.  We may be dead wrong, and often are, but we do it nevertheless because of what we believe.  When a Christian deliberately and knowingly sins, it is a breakdown of faith.   He believes that the sin will make him happier than God will.  The opposite of obedience, then, is not disobedience.  THE OPPOSITE OF OBEDIENCE IS UNBELIEF!"

Interesting thought, isn't it!

We tell ourselves that the things of the world are going to bring us happiness, and then we give ourselves permission to walk away from what we know is right.

Now I can begin the next book, Battlefield of the Mind.

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Well, I wanted to get this done, so I will be going for now.  I may add to this later, or may not share again until next week... I'm trying to decide how much time and effort to devote to this blog journal.  :-)

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May God help us all to find the path we need to take... and to keep ourselves focused on what we need to be doing, not what everyone else is doing.
May God provide what we need to accomplish His Will in this life, and to save as many as we can to eternity in heaven.
Amen.

18 October, 2017

Wednesday, 18 October 2017

My second effort... more computer gremlins to deal with.  May GOD help me to find a way through all this.

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I can't remember what I started with last time, I wish it auto-saved like it use to do... sometimes it saves, sometimes it doesn't.  I am not techy enough to know why, or what to do about it.  So I pray... and hope GOD deals with any human intruders... if they are involved.

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Today was not much of a day for memorializing... normal stuff, whatever that is!  :-)

I have been trying to revise my goal pages, to make them more useful, easier to keep records with.  I don't think there is a single answer to my quest... I keep running into the same problems.  I may need to go back to the daily page instead of doing the weekly record.  I was trying to fit it all in one notebook, for organizing and for storage.  52 pages is better than 365.  I will have to debate that again (with myself).

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I remember trying to share my food efforts, and my exercising challenge.  I love printing in color now.  It allows me to color code the sections I am trying to keep track of, especially with the food containers.  (21-Day-Fix)  My salads are getting to be a better portion size using 1 cup of lettuce and 1 cup of raw veggies.  My soup, chili, and foods like them, are being portioned out by the cup, or as close to that as possible, depending on the recipe.  I am growing fond of dicing my watermelon up. It makes a LOT of servings.  I have to figure out the calories for watermelons, they really help when you are also thirsty.  Lowering my caffeine intake is still on my list.  It is getting close to a special treat status.

My exercise challenge for the winter is still not figured out.  I am thinking of going back to my 5-minute effort on the elliptical machine my son has.  If I can force myself up and on to the machine in the morning, it may help me to get more done later in the day.  I would rather have an exercycle, the kind that is like riding a bike.  One of these days...  it will rise to the top of the priority list!

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My November budget is being started.  I don't know how much I can squeeze into it.  I am hoping to save enough money for Christmas.  I did make the formal decision on what I can give to Christmas programs like Toys for Tots, the Samaritan's Purse Shoeboxes, and food for mission meals.  I will try to give one gift within the local community this year, too.  Toys for Tots can be given early, even in September.  I have decided to make October my giving month for them.  November is collection week for Shoeboxes.  My food for mission meals is for Thanksgiving and Christmas, so November and December.  A community gift would be in December for Christmas.  Next year I hope to be more organized with my Christmas savings...so it won't be a challenge to budget it into my months.

My money is small, but it is my effort to share what I have with those who have less than I do... remembering all the years we needed to be receiving.  I had hoped GOD would bless WT long ago, so I would have more to give.  I don't know how GOD decides these things.  It seems to be an ongoing problem... the one who have don't give too much, the ones that don't have want to give more... something like that.

I need to figure out a tree for this year.  I use to have a small fake one that set on top of something.  It was the perfect size.  I need to find a new one like that... after I figure out where to put it.  I still have my twinkle lights, so I won't need those... or may get more for my windows.  I better start checking on those details.

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I still need to transfer my photos so I can have room for more.  I read how to do it, somehow moved one photo, but still haven't gone back to find the secret to moving them all to my other tablet with more storage.  I need a photo solution for uploading to Etsy and eBay, and anywhere else.

I'm working on it....

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The heavy rains start tonight.  If it isn't a permanent weather status yet, it soon will be.  I still have clean-up to do in the yard, but I am just keeping an eye on it... to see what happens.  It's a lot of ivy I wanted to move to the burn pile.

Someone in the neighborhood burned something today.  It was so smoky I didn't want to go anywhere, or let the dogs go out.  Yuck.  Every time I see the news photos of the CA fire damage, entire neighborhoods destroyed, leveled to the ground, it make me cringe for the people who lived there. 

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I need to read in my book, 21 Unbreakable Laws of Life, so i better get going.  I will try to find a great quote to share with you tomorrow.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May God watch over those who love Him and trust Him to care for them.
May our world become better, not worse.
May those who choose to sin, to hurt others, find a better way to deal with their problems.
May America not lose the one thing that made it great :: it's faith in God.
Amen.

17 October, 2017

Tuesday, 17 October 2017

Well, my thoughts are heavy right now... about homelessness issues after watching a local town hall about the topic.  It is how government works... public meetings.  I don't see that much gets done.  It is why I always hoped to do something on my own... which is what WT is all about.

I also am thinking about my sons and prison reforms...

I made two comments to the program.  One when it was live, one when I was viewing parts of it to check some information.  It is hard to know if any effort has any meaning when you are dealing with the government, and maybe the media.  The social media question they presented was about a program someone wanted to get done here... a place for homeless people to stay all day that was far from the downtown core, transportation, services they need to access, and other common problems in the war between city tourism and real community problems that don't look nice.

Now that I have my old computer going again, maybe I can find the letter/s I sent to city hall about these issues... and suggestions for ways to help more people.  The question of whether homelessness was a solvable problem came up... rhetoric won the day.  It isn't a solvable problem, there will always be poor people to deal with... they just change.  We need to create permanent options that really help people, stabilize them, show them ways to solve their own problems, or simply take care of people who cannot care for themselves in a protective environment.

The tax issues came up again... payers versus people in need... federal money needed for state and county programs (it is all the same taxes, paid by citizens)... and how will that money be spent.  Government, non-homeless people don't see the problems in the same way as the homeless do.  Their solutions are generally about hiding the problem as best they can, regulating the activities of those who mar the image they want to portray to the world, and often believing that homeless people really don't have solutions or they wouldn't be homeless... right?

I don't really have the opportunity to get involved in town halls... so this was interesting for me to watch live online.  Only one hour, at the local downtown college.  I saw people I hadn't heard of before, one a dean at one of the schools at the university.  The media panel was new to me, but nice to see a few faces. The official panel had four, the media panel three, the audience limited to 400, I think.  It was moderated by a local media group, by one of their top news anchors.  I don't know that I would travel that far for one hour of public conversation.  It was good to be able to access it online, and I am glad my tablets allowed me to connect to it without problems.

The other thing I noticed was that the audience speakers were mostly from local activist groups.  I see that it would be important to attend and speak, for them.  Tomorrow I will look up some of the organizations mentioned, especially the panel people.  I have discovered that bias is hard to see when you don't know who is talking. 

Well, we will have to see what happens...

Since coming back to Portland, I noted that one news report sounded like it was an unnecessary death due to homelessness... it was of a Jamaican man who was a recent resident, trying to settle here, probably looking for work, and housing... he parked his car by the river somewhere, for the night, to sleep.  Where he parked killed him.  It flooded somehow and he didn't survive.  I thought, he just didn't know where to park safely.  It is so hard to be homeless in a big city, any big city, and new places are even worse... it is scary to try to sleep when you have to be on the streets, never knowing who might try to hurt you.

These are the things that bother me... 

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD help us to find better ways to care for each other.  Amen.

16 October, 2017

Monday, 16 October 2017

Another Monday...  I seem to catch up with household duties on Mondays...
I went food shopping yesterday, so there is a lot of food prep to do.  Things like washing veggies like carrots and celery, making them into things to eat like salads and veggies for eating with cream cheese, freezing what I can for later.

I worked on my menu plan before I left for shopping, and now the situation is even worse!  :-)  I still need to eat the old food I made (chili and veggie soup), which don't freeze well.  Plus I have new perishables that have to be watched, made into things, and eaten before they spoil.  Buying food means I have food items I haven't had in awhile, which I want to eat up right away and mess up my plans.  The chickens are going to be feasting for a few days!  (haha)  Today I have to make a list and figure out how fast I can use it all.

We went to an asian market yesterday.  I found a melon I haven't ever seen before, so I have to discover that.  I saw a Jackfruit, whole and in pieces!  So amazing.  I have no idea how they eat it, cook with it, etc.  I am still remembering the size of the whole fruit, and the size of the seeds in the open pieces!  I may never be able to grow one of those, but I want some of those seeds for my collection!!!!!

I could have spent a lot more time and money there, exploring all the shelves and foods that would be strange to me, but we weren't able to do that.  I did find the bags of sesame seeds I wanted, and some spices in small bagged portions, and some new things to try out.  I found a bag of small bok choy in the produce section, so I decided to try it out.  I am now trying to figure out what I can make with that much bok choy, or I will have to freeze it for later.

Going shopping once a week is really a better plan.  In my menu planning I am trying to figure out how many servings of the food groups I already have so I can make sure I just buy enough to get to the next shopping day.  When you don't have control over the details of your shopping efforts, it changes everything.  I bought everything I could yesterday, breaking into my savings for more bus tickets, more postage stamps, and household items I need.  I feel broke now, and I still haven't finished my list.  I forgot the canning jars I wanted for my food storage plans.  Such a pain!

In my record-keeping, I made a new list of the things I still need to get.  By the end of October I will have a better idea of how much I can recover of my savings.  I have a few dollars left of my food stamps, and some farmer's market money for fresh veggies and fruit, so that will help cover any needs I have until I have my funds for next month.  It's an ongoing process.  I keep getting better at it, but you still have to find a way through today.

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I found some great quotes in my reading this morning, but don't have the time to share it here.  I may make a Facebook post later.  Finding the best way to share these things is what I am working on right now.  I know how I would like FB to work, but I don't know if it is possible. 

I may get this book finished by the end of the week, or sooner.  I am looking forward to starting a new book, and to reading the Joyce Meyer book on how our battles start in our mind... in our thoughts... in what we put into our thoughts.  As I get better at this process, I will be able to share more details about my spiritual discoveries, how I see the topics I come across, and what I think matters in godly issues.  I live to share my thoughts... I wish I would have started writing books so many years ago.  It just never seemed possible, now it does.

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My Christian programs are still on.  I have a hard time doing anything that requires mental processing when I have my programs in the background.  Some days I turn it off, some days I wait until they are done.  I am learning that I need my favored silence to do what I like to do... but that seems to be impossible to find anymore.  So I pray... sometimes for GOD's judgment of the guilty parties, sometimes for the ability to understand what it means to our world.  Technology is heading further into the realms of pain and suffering for innocent lives.  I don't know how we will survive, if GOD has a plan to help us, or if this is something we have to endure because of the free will choices of those who choose to hurt others.

I hope to re-start my daily Bible time soon... soon... very soon.  One day at a time, right?  Right!

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My survival duties are calling me... I'll be adding posts as needed, but working to make one post a day on Monday thru Thursday.  That is my plan right now.  It is an ongoing process... changing as my life changes.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD bless the day of those who love Him, who seek after His Will for their lives, who want the world to be a better place and glorify His Name more.
May our hearts be pure and wholesome and godly and ready to see GOD.
May we all reach out to those who are suffering.
May our lives have balance, finding the place where we have neither too little or too much, being content with GOD's desires for our lives.
May today be the first day of our happiness.
May all those we love be saved by grace and find us in heaven.
Amen.

12 October, 2017

Thursday, 12 October 2017

Another day...

We had a tornado warning interrupt our TV viewing this afternoon... an unusual event here in the northwest... or, it use to be.  I never remember a single west coast tornado in my growing and adult years, but lately they seem to be happening here, too. 

I don't know if I would attribute every weather change to the political topic of "global warming," but the atmosphere is changing.  What is causing it?  That is still a mix.  Naturally, pollution is doing lots of damage, but the sun is expanding too... our solar system is a very intricately designed ecosystem to allow us to live.  If solar flares can devastate the planet, other changes in the sun will affect us as well.

The Bible tells us that Man will destroy itself this time.  We can see that is happening.  I don't know if there is any way to stop the process, but it would be great to try to slow it down.

If I had money...  I have a long, VERY LONG, list of things I would get started to help save the planet.  New industries are possible in cleaning it up.  Getting solar, water, limited wind, power to those places that don't have the destructive forms we have would be great.  I am a fan of household independence, but big cities have their own energy problems.

My biggest unknown is still the question of how much environmental damage does the making of the renewable energy source have attached to it.  If we look pre-industrial age, we can find some better options... water wheels, which can now generate electricity. We can also now have SMALL wind energy structures that don't make a blight on the landscape and kill important flying animal life...  and I have been exploring farm-sized methane energy options to help with animal waste.  I am hoping to see solar integrated into the architecture of the building so it can be used to upgrade large city buildings.  Combining all these sources will help with year-round collection and use as electricity.

If you check into nuclear waste, you will be hoping you die before it kills us all.  I think the Star Trek model of nuclear energy as a power source for forever space travel needs to be considered... it lasts for thousands of years I think.  If we get to the same point as Krypton (Superman's dying planet), we will need to have space vehicles that will be able to survive on their own for thousands of years.

Personally, I want to be off-grid, with an option to connect to the big power source when, and if, I need to.  If I live in the middle of nowhere, however, I need to be able to survive without any other source of power.

In the recent disasters, it was obvious we need to allow other options... waiting for the electric company is not always the best choice.  Having off-grid options in the middle of the city allows neighborhoods to function until the rest of the repairs are done.

The problem is politics... and companies that feel threatened... and people needing money to get re-elected.

You see how I get going on these things!

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For me it was a day of making my date cookies and cleaning up the messes from yesterday.  :-)   Naturally, I ate too much date cookie, aka sugar!  It sure tasted good!  I put the bulk of them into the freezer, a LONG walk away from me.  Sometimes it helps.

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Well, that's about all I want to share for today.
See you tomorrow, GOD willing.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May the GOD of all creation help us to understand our limits,
limit our greeds, and find peace in living together as one people on one planet.  Amen.

11 October, 2017

Wednesday, 11 October 2017

Hi, again.  This is my second try at posting tonight.  They just disappear and I haven't figured out why yet.  Must be the gremlins that don't have their own lives to live... anyway, I have to start over again.

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I started by apologizing for missing my Tuesday post.  I got busy with my jewelry design efforts and sorting supplies and trying to figure out what I wanted to create.  I woke in the middle of the night and "remembered" what I forgot to do.  Sorry about that... it was bound to happen sooner or later.  As I get busier this blog posting will probably have to change... I am trying to decide what to focus on, what I have time for, and what matters more.

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Today I went through some of my recipes looking for a specific one, and that led to finding a bunch of things I want to try making again... or for the first time. 

I made the gummy bear DIY recipe today... modified according to what I had on hand.  I am not really a gummy bear fan, but I thought it was a great thing to try.  I never really thought about making your own gummy bears until I saw a Facebook video of it.  That was back in March, according to my notes.  I wasn't too happy with the results, but I made bigger shapes as part of my explorations.  I think I will buy a bag of gummy bears to compare mine with.  I want to change a few things in the recipe and see what happens... or forget the whole process.

I decided to try a candied nuts recipe tonight, which turns out KIND OF like peanut brittle.  I should have buttered the waxed paper I let it cool on... it's a mess!  It tastes pretty good, but I am going to be eating waxed paper with the candied nuts in this batch.  Next batch will be a different process!

I also started some dates... needing a pound and forgetting what that would look like.  I once counted out dates for another effort and decided 27 makes a cup... I was thinking that was a pound, but when the butter and sugar melted, I realized my mistake.  Good thing I had more dates on hand... I added more to make what I also remembered as two boxes of dates I purchased once making a pound for this same recipe.  Hopefully it will still turn out OK.  Tomorrow I will try to finish that one.

Christmas has always been a great time for baking goodies for me.  I love it. I love to give it all away to people, too.  My life is not quite the same as the younger days, so I have to find new places to share with.  Now that I am focusing on sales at Etsy, I am looking for recipes that will be good for selling as food items.

I'm not sure gummies are my answer, but I still want to see if I can modify the recipe (or the type of food it is) into something I would want to sell.

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Holiday Bazaars are coming into view.  The local paper had a list of them and I found several that I can reach by bus.  I want to go see what they are like and decide if I want to sell at them in the future.  As my health permits, I want to do one Christian and one community sale during the holidays.  It will be great to see what other people make, and try to decide if they sell a lot.

This year seems to be quite a busy one.  Maybe it's because I am looking for places to go to.

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In the process of finding one of the larger holiday events for gifts and food, I found a TINY HOUSE event at the same location.  I may try to go to both of them... but I don't know if I can.  They both have fees...   They are in November, so maybe I can get them into the budget.

I love the idea of tiny living as a no-mortgage option... being able to move around and not "start over" again is also appealing.  I think it was this morning that I saw a great trailer size for a tiny house... long like a semi, but low like a regular tiny house trailer.  NICE!  I think it was like those heavy equipment moving trailers, but I'm not sure.  If I had the money, I would be looking for it to see what the costs are.

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I forgot to mention (again) about the terrible fires in California that I heard about on the news today... The number of missing people is the largest I have ever heard of in my entire life.  From what the news is reporting, it seems to have moved into the populated areas in the middle of the night.  More than one interview said they woke to the smell of smoke and had to leave fast.  The aerial views are so devastating... entire neighborhoods burned to the ground... nothing left, or hardly anything.  It happens so fast... people's whole life is gone, all their memories, all their hard work, all their dreams for the future.  The shock is very hard to get through... there will be so many tears, for a long time.  Every time you remember something, you remember how much you lost.  May GOD help them all to get through their days and nights, to find happiness again.

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I guess that's enough for now...
It is so sad to think about the suffering that is happening all over, not just in California.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May the God of heaven help the hearts and lives of people who are suffering tonight.
May He bless them in a special way to let them know He loves them.
May the hard times find meaning in the future, a purpose to redeem them.
May we all find a way to keep our thoughts and prayers on the suffering that continues after the media goes away.
May the Church be focused on long-term caring, and provisions, and mercy.

Lord, help us to be better than we are, to grow in Your Love toward ourselves and toward others.
Help us to see the bounty of our lives, and the little that we really need in comparison.
Help us to find the place where we need to be, the place of peace, plenty, and gratefulness.
Provide for those who are in need; Move the hearts of those who have the answers to another's prayer.

Thank you, Lord, for all the blessings you give us that we forget to be thankful for.
Help us to be content when that is what we need to be...
and help us to be bold and active when there is work to be done for You.

Amen.

09 October, 2017

Monday, 9 October 2017

Today is Columbus Day, a federal holiday... no mail today.  I think the banks close, too.  I'm not sure what else gets closed, my main concern is the mail service.  :-)

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I have been reading more chapters in my book called "21 Unbreakable Laws of Life" by Max Anders.  I came across so many great quotes, but I didn't get them down anywhere.  I did find the following one, the best so far...

pg. 77, Chapter 8, Take the Garbage Out
"Unlike compputers, however, the mind can create its own worthless, inaccurate, or faulty information.  It doesn't have to be put in from the outside.  Someone can tell us as a child that we are stupid, and we will water, fertilize, and nurture that seedling into a forest of negative thoughts and emotions.
"That is why it is so critical that we exercise great care in what we allow into our mind and what we allow our mind to dwell on."

The chapter was comparing the term I heard years ago, "Garbage in, garbage out."  It has always been used in terms of computers and our minds.  One of the reasons we are encouraged to memorize the Bible is because it will rise to the surface when we are facing the trials that come.  We plant it into our minds, our memories, our meditations, and it is harvested when life brings a need for it.  Instead of putting garbage into our minds, which will also rise up and remind us of itself, we focus on good things to help us overcome the problems we face.

I read chapters 5-10 this past weekend and this morning.  There is a lot of good stuff to remember.  I am sure you will like this book if you find it for yourself.

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I didn't reach my goal of making and listing 2 pairs of earrings and 1 artwork, but I am still working on it today.

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My supply of caramels are undoing my best efforts to keep my calories down.  I think I have two left... at least one might be gone by the end of the day.   :-(   They should sell well, after I provide a sample!   haha

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I was able to watch TV over the weekend... I decided to watch ROGUE ONE.  It was pretty good.  I also watched a documentary called, A NEW ECONOMY.  I loved the urban farm they shared.  I don't recall what city it was in, but my sadness comes at the temporary status of efforts like this.  Urban areas are beginning to take advantage of roof gardens, but I am fond of U-PICK options.  One of the city farms was on a property slated for high rises... a parking lot that was about an acre and a half, according to the person affiliated with it.  With so many food deserts in poor areas, and especially downtown, finding room for growing large food gardens is critical.  Schools often have the space available, but the yield would be smaller, and not a community option.  Each city has its own design, and everyone wants tax money... a larger need in critical times is food.  How do you value survival?  No food, no water, no air equals no survival.

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Well, I better get going... and get busy with art or jewelry.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD help us to set the right priorities, to balance profit with our human necessities, and to care for those who cannot do what they need to for their own survival.
May we see the suffering as our responsibility... not the governments.
May the church rise up to solve these problems, meet people where they are, see needs as God's vehicle to reach them, and become the hands of heaven.
May our needs be less than we think they are so we will be able to share and help those with nothing.
May the weak be strong enough to reach out, and the strong be strong enough to let go of the things that God may have provided for others.

May the suffering be comforted as recovery takes so long to happen... let their hearts find blessings they never expected, a touch of GOD they can remember forever.  Amen.

05 October, 2017

Thursday, 5 October 2017

Another week is nearing an end...

I hear more about Christmas when I watch TV.  So many people and businesses are depending on the giving season to survive.  I think it was someone on NBR that said businesses are expecting a better year than last year.  I don't know if they ever say it is going to be a bad year.  

The rumor of tax reform is said to have made the stock market go up, but the value of the dollar is barely over 90 cents...
How do these things work like that?

Businesses are struggling to find qualified employees, but one woman quit her job to go into a home health aide position.

Billions of dollars have been authorized for hurricane relief, and more is expected to be needed. This is just the second installment payment, in billions.  The fires here in the western part of the country have already cost nearly 600 million... which seems so paltry in comparison...  but you don't rebuild a forest the way you rebuild a house.  It takes a LOT of years to grow a new tree, and ecosystem, and tourism, and beautiful scenery, and recreation income....  In the poor country we are responsible for helping, I think it was Puerto Rico, they have less than 10% of their electicity restored, with the number expected to reach 25% in a month... millions of people suffering there.  We just don't realize how expensive disasters are.  Without flexibility in our budget, they can kill our economy... our money system, I suppose I should say.  That is why the debt has to be reduced.  We don't have a financial cushion to take us through the unexpected.  Think about poor people who have no one to help them, who rely on charity, who have no options... that is what happens when you don't have a financial cushion.  I have been there... but I couldn't print my own money.

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A fun thing happened today when I discovered my son ordered the containers from 21-day-fix!  The little handout that comes with them is really wonderful.  It has food suggestions for each color.  I really had problems with the Healthy Fats container foods.

At only $8 through Amazon Prime, I asked them to order me a set for myself!  I have wanted to buy them for ages and ages and ages... I can do $8.  I had guessed the container amounts per size from exploring them online at many sites.  It's the colors that really make it work.  I found substitute containers to do my portions, but I can see they are just not the same as having the original colors.  :-)  I loved them!  I can't wait to get my own.

The issue of ordering gifts online came up when I asked to have them shipped to me, with my own email for the ebook that comes with it.  I've been trying to deal with this myself, for a long time.  You end up making separate orders for each person... so you can do a ship-to change.  The problem is even worse for digital sales.  I have this problem at Etsy, too.  If you plan to give a digital item to someone, there needs to be a way they can contact the source for replacement issues... especially if something goes wrong in the process.  I want to have my gift registered.  If I buy two copies, do I get one copy with permission to share, or do I need two copies registered to the people they are intended for?  My son ordered two sets, each with a digital ebook, but only received one file copy of the ebook... so does he have a right to copy and share?  How does all that get transferred?  There has to be an email for each file...two copies... but how to register ownership... that is the question.

Again, if I would have had the funds, I would have figured this out long ago...

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I hate to report that I ate FIVE  (5) caramels today!!!   I just couldn't stop.  Messed up my healthy food quest for sure, but it tasted so wonderful.  :-)   I LOVE CARAMELS... soft caramels.  Once I figure out the best way to make them, I will be selling them at Etsy... watch for it!

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I read through some materials online about neighborhood preparedness for disasters and really liked it.  I sent for copies of the materials, and read some of them online.  I learned some good things.  I hope to include them in my efforts to prepare for the unexpected.  You really don't understand how poverty restricts your ability to do things like that.  I saved water in old milk jugs, which was really important.  But food is not really an option... I guess it would depend on what time of the month the disaster happened... you might have food or might not.  These recent efforts have been the first time I could get ahead like this.  So I hope the disaster I might face doesn't take them away.

Are you ready for the things you see on TV news to happen to you? 

I'm from California, the Los Angeles area, so I know about earthquakes.  I never suffered complete destruction from one, but the fact that you never know when something like that will happen has never left me.  I suppose that is why saving water has always been a priority for me, especially when I was with children.  Here in Oregon they are expecting the BIG ONE to happen, too.  The fault line goes all the way up the west coast, to Alaska I believe.  If we make it through the main event, maybe we will be able to survive until things get better.

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I was reading about how to put photos into the blogs.  I will have to try it after I figure out how the instructions work at my blog site.  Maybe by next week I can share photos of some of the things I want to talk about.

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Guess that is about all for now.  I may start adding posts whenever something needs to be shared, but I haven't decided on that one yet.  I would be too attached to the process... that changes the dynamics of this effort, and I have other things to get done.  It may evolve as I get older.

Until next time...
In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD watch over us and lead us in His Truth to the best that we can be.
May our hearts be worthy of His Love, and our lives express the goodness of our hearts.
May we all find peace and joy, love and forgiveness, time and meaning in our lives.
Amen.

04 October, 2017

Wednesday, 4 October 2017

Hello, again...
It's 9pm and all is well... here, anyway... for now.  :-)

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I heard on the Christian radio station a reminder or two that tomorrow is Bring Your Bible to School Day... promoted by Focus on the Family (.com)... who would have thought that a Christian nation would have to do battle to carry a Bible... and more.

I use to keep track of See You at the Pole, too.

Without God as the foundation of our nation, there is no promise to protect us.  Remember that.  Our problems are getting larger every day.  I often wonder where they will lead, what I will see before I die.  It makes me cry when I really think about it a lot.

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Today turned into a day to recover from yesterday.  It takes a lot out of me to shop.  I didn't get too much done, not all that I wanted to, anyway.  Of course, I NEVER get all I want to get done done!  :-)

With new food in the place, I did a bunch of food prepping for later, ate too much, and don't even feel guilty about it.  haha!  Maybe I can catch up tomorrow, just a little anyway.

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It's a short post day.
Lots on my mind, and not wanting to share it all.
I did see the news, still a lot about Las Vegas, more hurricanes on the way...
I think the media teaches the bad guys how to hurt people when they do some of the reporting they do.  I haven't decided how to share my views on that... better.  I never knew you could make a gun turn into a better lethal weapon until this week.  Now everyone watching the news will know what to do to change a single shooting rifle into an automatic death weapon.  There is something wrong with this picture.  And it is always the GOP's fault, with the only view being shared that of the Democrats.  This is not the journalism I use to love.

Pray for our nation... we are a sinking ship and I don't think anything can stop it.  :-(

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May God help us to find a better way into the future.  Amen.

03 October, 2017

Tuesday, 3 October 2017

It's only 8pm, but it feels like bedtime.  I went downtown today, and it took a long time...
bus to the Mall transit center to catch the MAX into town,
MAX into town, stopping at the Farmer's Market by Lloyd Center,
MAX again, into the downtown area to go to the SCRAP store,
MAX from the SCRAP store area into the downtown transit office for directions to the USPS,
MAX from the downtown area to the USPS area,
MAX from the USPS area back to the Mall transit center to get home,
bus from the transit center to my home area,
stopped along the way for a sale item at Safeway,
bus again to the end of that line,
wait for a ride home, so I shopped for food until it came.

I left my house at about 10am, made it to the end of the line near my home about 4:30pm, but waited until after 5:30 for my ride to get there.  Home by 6pm, unloaded the things I bought, put them away, ate something, and here I am.  This is why I can't go that far all the time.  It is a major event!  I will be happy to make this trip once a month... if I can.

Public transit is great, but you can't travel out of your home zone much.  I'm working on a solution for me, but haven't found one yet.

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I got some great farm produce today.
I found some wonderful deals and things to experiment with at SCRAP (a reuse thrift store kind of place... recycling anything they can for use in any way you can, but mostly focused on art, crafts, and things like that.  I love it!
I ended up eating my meal out for the day at Carl's Jr again... the two meal deal... for me, anyway.  I eat the burger and fries and drink right away, and save the chicken sandwich for later.  I had it for dinner, with some extras from home.  I saved the cookie for tomorrow.  My $5 meal goes a long way!  :-)
My frig is stocked for the week or more.  This is good.  Lots of fruits and veggies, with a few treats, and time to make a list for the big shopping trip later in the month.
I guess this is a success to me.

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Tomorrow I will catch up with the budget.  I have $2 cash left.  $5 left in my emergency money.  And toilet paper still on the mandatory list for this month.  I need to make some money!!  Selling online is my goal because it fits for me.  PRAY!  I am very close to getting my shop filled with things to buy.  :-)

Have to go...

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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Thank you, Lord, for all the blessings of the day.
Thank you for life, for safety, for food, for rest, for the ability to shop.
Thank you for legal folders, a strange electrical thing I get to discover, silly putty, a wonderful egg-shaped pencil sharpener, a great small brown glass jar, highlighters in the colors I need, crafting ideas and supplies, and finally getting to SCRAP.
Thank you for farm sourced organic produce to eat, and finally getting to the Farmer's Market.
Thank you for public transit... walking would be even more restrictive.
Thank you for matching dollars.
Thank you for finding the post office and getting my packages sent today.
Thank you for everything.
Amen.

02 October, 2017

Monday, 2 October 2017

Well, today is my sister's birthday... Happy Birthday to her!

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I guess the big national news is Las Vegas... such a terrible event.  We are so vulnerable to all kinds of tragedies these days.  Communication systems have changed, so all kinds of people hear all about the things that go on in other parts of the world.  The desire to become noteable is still a human trait... as it has been since we were created.

I hate to hear about the suffering of innocent people.  When it happens to so many people at one time, it makes the news.  We get to hear about the history of violent attacks.  Gun control conversations are started, but they will never be the answer.  People who do harm to others don't care about the law.

As a Christian, as someone who sees through the lens of the End Times, there are other perspectives about these events.

I don't get to see much news, but I hope there are more details by the next time I am able to watch it.  I hope they find the motive, why the girlfriend was gone (out of the country), why a man who only had a couple hand guns (probably for protection) suddenly has so many assault weapons, and if he really shot himself.  Why would ISIS claim credit for this?

When the Sandy Hook shooting took place, I wondered why the young man went back to the first classroom he had attended at the school.

When people are dead, we can't find out details that may matter, that may change the entire event... including the shooters.

The Amish tragedy also made me wonder... what hidden details were not revealed... why would he decide to do such a thing? 

I never heard much about the investigations for all these shootings.  Life drags us back to our own problems... our own need to survive.  There are some things that happen in our lives that never reach the details behind our choices.  I wonder what is behind all these sorrows, these needs to kill innocent people.  People have reasons for what they do, we just don't always understand the pain behind our decisions.

I hope the people who have been affected will find a way back to some kind of peace.  It will be hard to recover.  All the killing on TV, and in our movies, and everywhere else, will make it hard to get away from the memories they now have.  I was in an automobile accident once, and when I watched a car rolling over on TV later, I felt sick to my stomach.  When I rode in a bus later, I got sick... the first time I was ever sick from riding in a vehicle.  I still remember the details surrounding that event. 

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My weekend is hard to remember. I get involved in so many small projects, ongoing efforts, and it all seems normal to me.  I have been getting my first FIMO projects ready, trying to see what I can make of them.  I remembered where my other jewelry-making supplies were put, so I am now working on making some finished products.  Once I get the process figured out, I will be able to make my listings at  http://www.etsy.com/shop/work2gather to see what can sell.  I am beginning to get excited... really excited... I am finally at the point of creating more listings!  :-)

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I have to get some food tomorrow, but I decided to go through my planned donations from a long time ago (packed into my shopping cart thing) and put all the food and other things back.  I made my tithe plan into a better format (excel) over the weekend.  NOV and DEC are my big donation months, so I will just do those as my substitute USPS food drive donation (which the mail person didn't pick up).  My budget efforts are getting better every month.  I am so glad.  Next year should be even better.

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I am still thinking about the book I shared with you all, by Marie Frost, about the caring of women and how it changes the world.  I hope to finish my other book by this weekend, but it's no big deal if I don't.  My next book will be another one I found at the thrift store...  COACH WOODEN'S PYRAMID OF SUCCESS PLAYBOOK : Applying the Pyramid of Success to your life, by John Wooden and Jay Carty.  I'm not a sports person, but it looks interesting from the illustration of the Pyramid.  :-)

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It is time for bed... I am so tired.  Lots to do tomorrow, too.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD watch over all of us tonight, and through the days of our lives, providing the resources we need to fulfill His plan for our lives.
May we find answers to all the pain that lives inside of people, and help them to find answers that won't harm others.
May America make a plan to financially survive all these events that "ruin our budget" even more than it already is.
May we all find a way to respect our differences and not kill or sue because someone doesn't see the world the way we do.
May GOD watch over my sons and other loved ones as we are apart, physically or spiritually, and bring us all to heaven one day.
Amen.

29 September, 2017

Friday, 29 September 2017

Here I am again...  :-)

I finished the book by Marie Frost.  It was good... maybe an ending to go with the preface, a summary of some kind, would be nice.  It ended with a chapter story.  Maybe I need to read that one over and see if that was the summary.

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Been working on my product development today... trying to figure out chocolate... how to use it and make it look good.  I see lots of practice ahead of me.  Good thing the holiday season is upon us!

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I finished a loaf of Orowheat bread today and decided to check out the calorie count.  I had to laugh at the name of the manufacturer ::  BIMBO Bakeries USA Inc.  --  :-)  In my youth, BIMBO was not a nice name... for a woman, I think.  I don't know if it's still in use...  I hope the owners are some of those people who gathered together and started a CO-OP, employee-owned, company with a cause.

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I have been controlling my caramel consumption pretty good so far.
Now to overcome the exercising problem...

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I opened the CD package with Joyce Meyer's 12 Power Thought strategies.  I just started the 3rd of 4 disks.  It will be good to have as a revival message when things get confused by the enemy of our souls.  I will check out the book over the weekend... it is nearly my Sabbath... that will be good to do on the Sabbath.

Our lives are deeply affected by our minds, our thoughts, what we see, what we hear, what we feel... we need to control what goes into our mind because it affects our life... what we choose.  When things enter my life against my will, I sometimes close my eyes and be still, letting my soul talk to GOD through the Holy Spirit.  I pray out loud.  I distract myself, look away, close my eyes, or change something about my situation... go to a different place, get up, go do something else, talk to GOD, pray and wait.  Technologies that have made our lives better have also become tools of evil... we have to find a way to deal with them, keep our faith in GOD, and trust that God is able to walk with us through every problem we face.  Keeping our minds on scripture, on good things, on the power of God, and prayer will help us.

I don't know what all the categories are yet (for her strategies) so I can't share them yet.  Maybe on Monday I will include some of them.

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I will try to find a solution to the photo problem for posting here.  There are a lot of photos I would like to be including here with my text.  I just have to find the help section for that problem... I hope!  :-)

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I need this rest... I hope I get some.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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Thank you, Lord, for all that we have and are able to do.
Protect those who love You, who trust in Your Word, and believe You are in control.
Bless this weekend, make it restful, fun, joy-filled, meaningful, and special.
Thank you for what I have and often take for granted... food, shelter, life, rest, etc.....
Bring us to your heart, Lord... help us to know your will for our lives... provide for us.
Amen.

28 September, 2017

28 September 2017

I am barely making this post by midnight again... hope we make it!

I was doing the accounting for my shopping trip yesterday... can't believe I still have a few dollars left for the rest of my month!  :-)  It took awhile to figure out the moving around of the category amounts... I didn't have my budget in the envelope system... I just separated the cash for the budget categories and went by my list, plus other deals and supplies along my path.  I am working on a better way to do this, but it takes time and sometimes I don't have the opportunity to shop, so I overdo it when I go.

I am just thrilled I have more than $2 left... which is what I thought I had left yesterday.

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I posted about the book I am reading by Marie Frost from 1979.  I hope you will find it at my Facebook or Twitter pages.  It's hard to keep writing the same thing, so I posted it once at the WT page and then shared the link anywhere I could think of.  I tried to boost the post, but the "order" didn't process.  Not sure what happened as it was the first time I ever filled out the form...

I hope to finish the book tomorrow... I didn't get to it today. 

The cover has a photo of a woman, and I keep wondering if that is the author.

I guess the chapter on her failure is the most impacting... but others are really important to the theme of the book.  We all hate it when we miss hearing GOD "knock" on our door to do something for Him.  It is even more tragic, and life-changing as a lesson from heaven, when there is no way to recover from not doing what we should have because the person dies.  It is hard to keep going with those kinds of memories, but it makes our future actions different... hopefully better.  I cried when I read it.

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Today I also watched one of the VHS tapes I bought... one called OUR AMERICA, about life in a project in Chicago, from the early 2000's.  Gangs, wasted lives, poverty, misery, tragedy... government efforts to get rid of the poor.  It was a preview tape, I don't know if it ever was in the theatres or on DVD.

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I think I will post again tomorrow.  For now, this will do.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD help us all to understand human needs, and look for better solutions.
May our children find better lives.
May God help us to see poverty as a way to be involved in the struggles of others, more than writing a check or getting mad at the government for helping them, and with the eye of GOD, who loves the poor.
Amen.

27 September, 2017

27 September 2017

Long day...
It was my shopping day. 
And it became more than I wanted it to be.
That seems to happen when you generally shop one or two times a month.  :-)

I also want to note that I bought a lot of the things on my lists... for the house, for my crafts, and treats for me... which is finding treasures at thrift stores.  :-)  I am way off my budget, maybe... I have to figure all that out tomorrow... but I will be happy with what I bought.

I ate my meal at a fast food restaurant...
Found some great books, DVDs to watch, and a VHS that may wait to be watched (on huntin Mule Deer).  I found a set of book and disk about Joyce Meyer's book on the Battlefield of the Mind.  I have heard something on it and wanted to know what was inside.  The disk will be a plus.  It's a CD of some kind.  My cookbook for this trip is called Baking Without Fat... this should be good!  haha  And my craft choice today was a SUNSET book on pillows.  I think I found a documentary on Wal-Mart, but I'm happy to have found a copy of Faith Like Potatoes.  Another find was another copy of Dave Ramsey's 2007 workbook for Financial Peace University, but this one isn't written in. I decided I needed it.  :-)  I found a bunch more, but they will have to wait until tomorrow or never reach these pages.

I went to TWO thrift stores today!!!  I happened to be by the Teen Challenge store so I decided to look.  I was there over two hours I think.  I found some really nice things, and things I needed... like a trash can for my paper shredder that only cost $3... and a great saw, I think it is called a hack saw, that I hope will help me with my wood projects.  I found a kind of good cheesecake pan, the tall ones, that is also small (only 6 inches wide).  It has a problem with the bottom closure, so I have to try it out to see if it leaks.  If it works, it is really a great find.  My splurge at Teen Challenge was one of those money counting jar/bank.  It worked with the coin I tried it with, and I figured out how to reset it.  Tomorrow I will try it more and see what I think of my find.  It cost me $2.  I am so happy, if it works right.

My main thrift store is the Salvation Army, the sale day, which was today.  It was one of the reasons I went shopping today.  I had to go, even though I was so tired.  It was worth it.

That's about all I can do for tonight.  I left the house at 8am to get to the bus... my son picked me up around 5pm... it took over two and a half hours to get it sorted, washed, and put away...  I am tired.  You are lucky I even am writing this!  :-)

Until tomorrow, when I know I will be doing better and can share more details about things...

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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Thank you, Lord, for such a great day.  Amen.

26 September, 2017

26 September 2017

Another day is over, and I need to journal my thoughts about it. 

I actually am missing this process over the weekends... it's like a diary for the world to see my simple life and goals and efforts and challenges and faith in Something Bigger than me for all the things I cannot control (or fix). 

Trusting GOD for these things can really be a big challenge at times... we want everything bad to go away in a minute and everything good to stay forever... if God doesn't see these things happen, well... we think it's His problem, not ours.  It isn't something you learn once and then you have it conquered.  Every new problem brings a new path through this process... a new thing to learn about God and how we fit into His plans instead of Him fitting into ours.

I keep praying about the same things, it seems... wondering when the answer will get to me... wondering how other Christians fight their enemies... spiritual and human.  I try to find people in the Bible that have struggled in similar ways to help me find out how God deals with these issues, what I may need to do, etc.  I seem to think about things I haven't heard sermons about.  I don't know when an answer will come when I am searching for it, I just keep searching.

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My new business cards arrived today.  :-)
I posted photos at Facebook groups, Twitter,  and ??? can't remember where else.
Now I have to get my website updated... new links ready for December... prices and payments figured out, and benefit structures.  It's getting "real" now, my December effort on social media and wherever else I think of by then.  I hope God blesses this effort.

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An old friend that is on Facebook had a post about needing to get back into the gym for exercise.  I don't go to gyms but I have been trying to get back to a schedule on my son's eliptical machine.  I was trying to do five minutes at a time, starting with one session and building up to my 30-minute goal.  Winter is indoor season... even more now that I live so far from the bus and am getting older, with health issues.  I have been planning for a long future through being homebound, but aware that I may not make it to tomorrow.  I am still not ready to die, but I am getting the details figured out.  Exercise is part of my long-term effort.  Losing weight, getting back to my normal range, is part of my long-term effort.  Soon I am going to have to get on a scale and see where I am at.  I hate the thought of finding out I barely lost a pound...  :-( 

One of my food control efforts is to learn menu planning for my calories.  It isn't an exact science for me, but I am getting better at it.  I found a grocery shopping form at Every Dollar (daveramsey.com) and wound up using it for a meal planner.  Now I have created a better one for myself on my restarted old computer, not attached to the internet... or wi-fi.  I am working on more fruit and veggies, less fattening foods, and (right now!) I am struggling to stop eating the caramels I made!!! 

I wasn't able to coat them in chocolate and bag them up yet, because I need more chocolate I think.  I wound up eating 2 or 3 more... they are thick so they are lots of calories... and SO GOOD!  I can see this is going to be a problem that needs a solution.  I am thinking :: a separate kitchen for all my products, health department approved, where packaging and shipping are taken care of... far away from my personal space!  That will work for me.  Now, how to get to that solution...............   :-)

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I think it was Dr. Lustig, or Dr. Amen, that said "salad is the meal."  I discovered balsamic and olive oil as a dressing that I like, and they are my current dressing choice.  I know it was Lustig that says "a calorie is a calorie..." so you have to make sure the calories you eat are good for you.  Salad is good, caramel is not so good.  They are part of my inspiration for increasing my veggies.  I guess fruits are full of calories as well as health, but veggies are low in calories and big on health... so I am working at increasing my veggies.

It is hard to get away from the meal concept... big meals three times a day, plus snacks.  I am working on smaller meals as a calorie measure.  When you start to see the calories in what you eat, it is amazing how little you can fit into 400 calorie meals.  The 21-Day-Fix teaches this small meal perspective... and has lots of ideas... lots of veggies, too.  Their materials state that 1200 calories are the absolute minimum for ongoing health needs, and I agree.  I have a book by Rocco DiSpirito that says you can go down to 850, I think, and still be OK if you eat the right foods.  I think that seems low, too low.  Even at 1200 calories you have to spread the meals around.  I think I can reach my goal of two meals and a snack at the 1200 calories... that would let me have 500/500/200 as breakfast/dinner/ mid-day snack.  I think that might work.  I'm looking for food ideas to fit into the calories I want to limit myself to.  Pinterest has some great links for that, so does YouTube, I think.  It's all in the search terms.  I can flex if I want to, like my Friday Free Night.  It is getting to be a good thing, but I still have to be careful one exception doesn't turn into a continuous treat.

This caramel binge is really messing up my food challenge!  That's why food is so big on my mind right now.

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If you have seen my Facebook posts, you know I finished my big easel chalkboard painting project and posted photos.  My second item is almost done.  My sanding task has a wait on it so I can figure out how to sand it withing ruining it.  I may find a buffer and see what that does.  It is such a mess... tons of bubble holes.  My effort to make a chalkboard gift from recycled materials is also still in progress.  After I get the little easel done tomorrow, I will be able to get on to the FIMO molds I want to do.  I want to get my molded projects listed first... they will be more achievable for orders.

It is all beginning to take shape.  I have so many directions to move in that it takes the whole process longer to move forward.  I have often said I have "conflicting goals" or that I can't decide where to focus first... because it all connects to each other.

I have to pray through every day... and then leave it to GOD.

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Well, that is enough for today. I like the new book I am reading so I will try to take notes on the best things to share from it. I tend to get carried away with the moment, the happenings of the day, and then forget to share the deeper thoughts I process about spiritual issues.  I have lived by faith alone for so many years that I consider everything part of my process... trusting God... getting from here to there.  It is probably boring for you, so I hope to find other things to write about.  :-)

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD help me to overcome the spiritual battles I pray about often.
May GOD show His Power in these battles and glorify His Name through the things He does.
May GOD be the One I cling to, the One I remember, the One that matters more in my decisions.
May GOD protect the innocent, have mercy on those who need it, and judge the ones who cannot change.
May GOD bless my efforts, provide what I need, and help me to walk toward His work in my life.
Amen.

25 September, 2017

25 September 2017

I keep sticking to the counters!  I made caramels today and discovered a drip happened in quite the problem spot.  I am going to hold out for my shower tomorrow... if all the ants in the neighborhood don't find me, I should be OK!   :-)

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I watched a free movie this weekend, on TV, called THE HELP.  I didn't get to see it when it came out, so I wondered what it was about.  Hollywood always has objectionable material in their films, but I survived.  I'm not sure I remember all that was going on when it came out... It was quite different from watching HIDDEN FIGURES.  It always make me sad to know that people are mistreated just because another person wants to feel superior.  GOD never condones these things... they are the heart of Man coming out.  It won't go away because we want it to, or because it is right, because we are all equal as humans, because the nature of Man is involved.  This need to feel better than someone else is part of many other problems, including crime, and addictions, and gangs, and wars, and domestic violence, and child abuse of all kinds, and more.

I guess I was impacted by watching it...  I can't say if I was impacted good or bad.

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I started my next book today.  I decided to read Max Anders  "21 Unbreakable Laws of Life : Lessons You Don't Have To Learn The Hard Way" -- quite a big theme, don't you think?  It's from 1996.  A few of the topics are ::  Happiness, Holiness, Success, Relationships, Suffering, and Faith... you can tell there are 15 more, but you will have to find the book or see if I decide to write about them.  :-)

I am thinking of sharing the Laws of the Jungle at Facebook because I follow DSWF (elephant sanctuary in Africa) and I love it.  I thought the followers might get a laugh at some of the tips for surviving in a real jungle... like "Never turn your back on a skinny lion" and "If vultures are circling above you, see a doctor soon."  He made up 21 for the list...it would be a big share effort if I do.  :-)

The theme of the book is to survive the jungle of your life.  From the Christian perspective.  So far I finished Chapter One (Law One).

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I am heading into OCTOBER with my goal strategies... been working on my budget (done), and revising my recordkeeping forms to keep on track with my goal efforts, and have been using my old computer to get use to it again... it is amazing how much you forget.

My new business cards should arrive soon... I hope they turned out nice.  Ordering online is a challenge, things don't always look the same when they arrive.  This isn't my real design, but I couldn't get to that yet.  I am trying to plan a strategy for using them.  I have no idea what I can do from where I am in my life right now.  This is what faith is all about.  I suppose my theme song is the old saying, If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.  I've been trying again for my whole life... I hope this time works!  :-)

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Been getting back into my crafting slowly... finishing the chalkboard painting projects, doing the caramel to see how it would work, and finding recipes and supplies.  Art and FIMO are next...  hope I can figure out some nice stuff.

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Watched/listened to more of my NO MONEY DOWN tape... very interesting.  I wrote in one of my letters over the weekend that I will be better prepared for when GOD decides to bless me.  :-)  That's part of the goal, why I keep on trying, why learning and planning matter.  It is 90% planned in my head, so I will be able to go faster to get things done when GOD provides.

December is still the plan for WT Memberships, crafts are the plan to help me survive.

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I have been avoiding my Medicare challenge so far, trying to decide what to do about it.  I have to call about it soon...

Getting old is bad enough, how do seniors survive the government?  I know poverty and the government, I hoped to be far away from them by the time I retired.  We just never know the effects of life on our dreams.

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I am still trying to find out why I can't insert photos in my blogs... I use to do it... so when I overcome that obstacle I will be able to share more with you.  Until tomorrow....

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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Thanks to GOD for life and hope... there were times when I didn't think I would have either.
Thanks for the carmels, which I ate too much of, but it tasted so good!  Now I need to get the rest out of the house!
Thanks for my new book, which will be great to think about.
Thanks for no rain, for the kitty being OK, for food and goals and a budget.

May GOD bless those who are crying out to Him tonight.
May He watch over my sons and others who are being prayed for.
May our country find its way back to economic health and away from substituting more controlling measure to deal with the problems debt brings with it, and their bad decisions.
May the holidays be a good memory for as many as it can be.
May children find happiness, and love, and joy, and peace, and safety, and salvation.
May God's Will be known, and provided for, and blessed in my life.

Amen.

21 September, 2017

21 September 2017

Thursday...  finally.

Fighting the battles of faith in an ungodly world brings so much pain with it...  we tend to expect GOD to make that hedge around us and prevent all pain from reaching us, but He doesn't.  We suffer for many reasons, some are because of our relationship with God, Jesus, and the Bible. 

I finished the last chapter in the book by Dr. Cho today... and it was about faith in our daily lives.

I guess this would be a good quote from that chapter...  "Whether I live or die, succeed or fail, increase or decrease I will do according to God's word."  It was sharing the idea that we follow God's directions to us, at a personal level, despite what the consequences may be to us...even though it is hard... sometimes when we don't understand.  The big key to this is knowing it is GOD speaking to you, and making sure the enemy isn't pretending to be GOD.

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We live in an age that no one in the past could have imagined.  The power of the internet is beyond our ability to fully understand, and we are victims of what it can do to us and those we love.  In my own search for a way through these issues, I keep remembering that GOD warned us we would have to endure to the end... it seems a bit early for that prophecy, but the advice is pertinent to our situations now.  As the internet grows, as our ability to control it becomes more obvious, and as we begin to see the potential details of prophecy happening around us, our need to keep our focus on GOD and to endure the new kinds of suffering ahead of us will be very important.

I am a senior citizen.  I don't know how much longer I will be alive, and I don't know how many years we have as Christians until the Antichrist is revealed.  Instead of a rapture out of this world, I think we will have to die in our faith because of the global power the Antichrist will have... we will be leaving this Earth, but the way will be different.  The goal of Working Together is to make places for Christians to help each other until that time gets here. 

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I received a comment from someone claiming to be a pasor in India.  I have been trying to decide what to do with this comment.  It doesn't interpret my goals for WT correctly, and posting it on the blog is not a solution.  It is one of many problems to deal with as I continue to work to establish Working Together in the midst of my own trials and tribulations.  It makes me see how the enemy seems to have more power than God... because this world is all we know, what we can see, where we suffer... but GOD is the one with a larger power, and the ability to make sure His Will is done even when Satan would like to thwart it.

In the chapter I read today, the example of Moses and the Red Sea was used.  How the people trembled at the thought of dying, how Moses was the only one who really understood the power of God, and how God speaks and does things.  I noticed in the scripture quoted that they would no longer see the Egyptians that were chasing after them, that God would fight for them... and what God did to fulfill that word.

"And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will show to you today: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen today, ye shall see them again no more for ever.  The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace."

GOD protected His people, and destroyed the Egyptian army.

I also noticed how God does these things... through natural sources, like the river.  When they put lambs blood over the doorposts, the angel of death passed them by.  When Pharaoh declared he would kill the firstborn of the Israelites, the firstborn of the Egyptians were killed.  In the Bible, these themes are repeated over and over again, including in the life of Christ.

Knowing this makes it hard for Christians to accept suffering and death in their lives, believing it to be judgment for something.  I guess this is also a theme of the Bible... why people were considered cursed when they suffered, etc.

I have been working through these mixed thoughts all my life.  I want to know, but there is no clear answer.  It is suffering that makes us seek God for the answers.

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Today I also entered a post at a Christian group,  "Praying for God to intervene..." -- because I want to see a Red Sea open in my own life, and the Egyptians that plague me to be destroyed. 

How will GOD answer this prayer?  I don't know.

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The sun was shining today, and that was good.  I did take some cold medicine to ward off the illness that is trying to get me.  :-)  I will know by the end of the weekend.  It takes about a week to get a cold, about a week of being sick with it, and then another week as it goes away...  I found this out when my kids were young.  It seemed to take so long for them to get better I worried about pneumonia and all kinds of things.  Naturally, I went to the doctor in the third week, when it was going away on its own!

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This weekend I should be able to get some art and crafting done.  If I figure out how to post photos with my blogs, I may share some with you.  I think I need a real computer to do that.  I can post photos, but haven't been able to post a photo in the blog... like I use to do way back when.  I'm still searching for the path on that one.

This is a personal journaling-style blog... please try to remember that.  I will be posting separately to WT blogs about those issues.  I also have a separate Crafting blog for those activities.

Time to go.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD watch over the good people who love Him as the days pass by.
May He help us to see His path for us.
May our hearts be willing to do our tasks in the Body of Christ.
May the enemies we face be overcome.
Amen.

20 September, 2017

20 September 2017

Wednesday!
I made it this far... one more to go!  :-)

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Today I opened the can of chalkboard paint for the first time... what an experience.  It was not thick and creamy like I thought it would be.  Must be the water clean-up that does that.  I had to pour a load on one of the things I was trying to turn into a chalkboard, but the air bubbles were a killer... on all of the things I tried to make.  By the end of the can I will have to figure out the best way to do chalkboard paint... or find out the best brand name.

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I looked all day for the missing black cat, who is currently not very mobile -- not able to walk well, which I hadn't seen for days.  I called, and called, and called.  I wandered the whole yard while I called.  I worried.  I watched.  I wondered if it had died somewhere, all alone, in the rainy cold.  It was a horrible thought.  The cat suddenly appeared on the porch when my son came home... so I carried it, through the forbidden house (so I could get my shoes) to the back area, and its food/water and shelter space.  I hope it is still there.  I will check again tomorrow.

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In a moment of rest, I decided to watch the VHS tape I bought last time I was at the thrift store... The Bells of St. Mary's ...with Bing Crosby and Ingrid Bergman.  Anyone remember them?  :-)  It was nice to see it.  Different than I remembered.  Later I noticed it was a "Special Edition," but I wasn't sure what that meant.  I did notice they left the "Under God" part of the Pledge of Allegiance off of the scene when the kids were shown saying it.  Made me wonder....

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Today was a mixed day... getting things done, cleared off my work space/table, moved around some more.  So glad I didn't go shopping.  I would have regretted getting caught in those repeated down pours.

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My life isn't that exciting, but it is life... I have heard that life is 90% boring stuff you have to do and 10% exciting stuff that the movies like to show at 100%...  I can see that.  I really want to share more details about my serious efforts, but that isn't rising to the top right now.  It seems to come in spurts, when the details move into those kinds of conversations.  I am getting into more of the answers I was seeking about my blogging.  I hope you will bear with me.

Today I checked on eBay selling and printed off a lot of details to review.  It's been awhile.  I end up going through this cycle over and over because I have to start over and over again.  I hope this time my efforts will begin to bear some fruit.  There isn't much time left for this holiday season.  I am working on it.  I guess checking things off my list helps me to get closer to those goals.

Tomorrow I will need to make a better list.

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No news today.  I can check the weather on my mobile devices, but getting whole programs is a problem.  I'm looking for the best solutions for my situation.  There aren't many.

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I noticed a post by Georgene Rice (KPDQ radio) today about the term "Gay Christian" and I was motivated to reply.  It's one of those gray statements.  Technically, someone could be a saved Christian doing battle with their chosen sin of participating in gay sexual activities, like those who commit adultery, pedophilia, fornication, and other sexual sins.  The difference is in attitude... in commitment to GOD and Christ... in knowing it is sin.  There is a movement in our day to say that you can be a committed Christian and still be a practicing homosexual, that it is not a sin.  That kind of definition is a problem.  It is just trying to justify something God has plainly called sin, an abominable sin.

Since these are the days of the world falling toward its destruction, and sexual sins are the primary sign of how close we are to that destruction, these word battles seem like something we have to expect.  There won't be a winner.  In prophecy, the sins that win are just paths to hell and the Lake of Fire.

I don't know what it will be like to live in this kind of a degrading world... even in the US.  I think Christians are going to have to create their own safe spaces, if that is possible, where they can be near each other to protect the group... kind of like Nehemiah on the wall... or like the Amish who have their own communities.  Jesus People have also created workable communities.  It isn't what we want, but what we have to do.

God needs to help us... financially, community-wise, governmentally, physically...  I hope He does something soon.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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In God We Trust... May He carry us into the future and protect us from our enemies.
May our things become the resources we need for the Body of Christ.
As we gather, help us to be wise about how to meet the larger needs of those nearest to us.
May our lives be joined in community as we learn to share individually.
Provide for these needs, Lord... help us to prepare a place of relative safety for our children, our grandchildren, and for our elderly.
Help us to save the places that honor you, our spiritual heritage, our fellowship... and become the safety net for Christians in the future.
As families die, as relationships fracture and are destroyed by the enemy, help us to love the strangers from the Body of Christ.
Help us to prepare, Lord... help us to make places of relative safety, comfort, recovery, unity, love, and joy... until you call us Home.
Amen.

19 September, 2017

19 September 2017

Another rainy day, with a little bit of sunshine!  It is taking time to get use to the rain, and the changes it brings.  Instead of running out for a few minutes without a coat, I think of getting a cold and grab my warmest covering.  It isn't fun to get sick.

I did take the dogs out for a bit in the afternoon, and it was beautiful out... sunshine, no rain, nice.  I didn't want to come back in, and I don't think the dogs did either.

Right now I hear heavy drops falling outside.  I am trying to decide if I want to brave the wet weather and go shopping tomorrow to get some things on my lists.

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Christian radio is on right now.  It is a program with a guy talking about marriage relationship issues.  I like the way he shares his wisdom, gleaned from years of learning through his own life.  I guess it is Focus on the Family, and the speaker is Bob Crane... they just told us all that information.

Marriage is not something I can witness about.  It wasn't really a part of my life.  It would have been nice to experience, but the Bible is right, if I would have married, everything else in my life would have been different. 

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I finally ordered some business cards for myself associated with Working Together.  I tried Vistaprint.  I hope they turn out the way I think they will.  It isn't the final design I will have for WT, but it will do for today.  I am trying a membership drive in December, so I need something.  I'm not sure how to utilize them yet.  Once they get here, I will decide.

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I moved things around in my room today, too.  Getting my computer and VHS player to a better spot, and listening to some of my Carleton Sheets tapes on buying real estate for no money down.  If I prepare for the day when GOD provides for me, then I will be able to use my money more wisely.

My art supplies got better organized in the process, too.  :-)  If I wasn't so tired, I would stay up and paint, but it will have to wait until tomorrow.

There is still some finishing work to do on all the changes from today, but it is getting better each time I make the effort to find a better way.  My lists of things to get become more specific, and my budget is helped.

Some goals get done faster than others, too. 

Maybe I should say my goals are getting done faster than they were before, but still not fast enough for me.

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What can we do when our lives are not our own?  We have to trust GOD for all the details.  That is what I do... every day... for many years. 

I hope to have more to share tomorrow.  I am getting a notebook created to keep notes for my blog posts, and Facebook/Twitter/Pinterest posts.  It will all become better as time and money and supplies merge to provide for it.  Business cards, online marketing, finding the right things to sell, updating my webpage and other accounts to see where I am and make it all connect... Finding peace and safety, making a place for other Christians to do the same... these are my prayers.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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18 September, 2017

18 September 2017

So, what a weekend...  I kind of vegetated, watching TV and Netflix (documentaries) and free movies (Hidden Figures from HBO I think).  Is learning the same as vegetating?  I'm not sure.  I am still working on my Sabbath rest boundaries... everything I do seems to somehow apply to my various​ work involvements.  It's a challenge.

I have already posted some comments on my Facebook page for Fixing America about the documentaries I watched yesterday (Sugar Coated) and today (GMO OMG), but here is some of the list from my Sabbath effort to rest by watching the tv... I actually can't remember all of them.

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Feel Rich (food/health documentary on hip-hop/rap culture.  I am not involved in either genre, so all the people were new to me, except I recognized a photo of Eminem  :-)  but the end of the movie showed a lot of their people who died young.  I guess I recognized Quincy Jones, too.  :-)   It was hard for me to watch some of it... I'm not into the profanity that is normal for some people.  I did like the healthy focus, and how we change.  I think this was the one talking about Meatless Mondays not being enough.  To me the challenge of Meatless Mondays is a starting point, a first step on the way to better health.  You have to glean what matters.)

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Facing Darkness (so good, Christian film by Samaritan's Purse about ebola outbreak in Africa... I couldn't afford to see it in the theatres or buy the DVD, so when I saw it was on Netflix, I watched it right away.  EVERY Christian needs to see this... it shows how wonderful we are as people, missionaries, and organizations...  I was so glad I watched it.)

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Banking on Bitcoin (documentary about the start of Bitcoin and some of it's problems... one of two I noticed.  I will have to watch the other one at a different time.  I am wondering about Bitcoin, especially if there is a global financial crisis.)

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Cowspiracy  (documentary about animal agriculture's effect on global warming, but the host lost me - and the people he interviewed - when he took it into a vegan/meat eaters issue.  There was a lot of good detail, and the presentation was OK, but the bias changed the focus of the issue.  How our food supplies are raised and processed is a real issue, and needs some solutions.  I wish I could recall the parts that meant a lot to me, but watching too many documentaries at one time mixes all the details up.  I already plan to take notes the next time I binge watch!  :-)

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Rancher Farmer Fisherman (a movie I found while looking through the free movie section.  Nice.  It looks into the livelihoods of three areas, with an emphasis on major players.  It helps you to see the desperate need we have to protect our existence from the greed of government... and shows how dependent we are on these food supplies.)

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Hidden Figures (was another movie I couldn't see when it came out.  Loved it.  It was funny and sad to see our country behaving like it did, but it was also nice to see some "normal" black families... as opposed to criminals and drug involved or violent....  I hope more of the details were from real history than created for the dramatic effect movies need to have... it was based on real events.)

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These all gave me a lot to think about, especially food issues.

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Rain has begun in the Northwest.  I call it a warning from God that winter is coming, so get ready!  :-)   I had to get out my thermals and wore my warm coat for the first time in months.  I think I am fighting off a cold from the change in drafty spaces and cold air.  I have to decide how I can do my shopping in the rain again.

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I saw some of the news today... about two more hurricanes coming to the US, and video of a terrible accident.  With all the cameras being put up for surveillance issues, we are able to see things we may not want to see... it brings the horrors of the world too close.  The need to be first, have the most alarming details, shock the world, be seen, get noticed, and more... it has changed our lives.  It will change the future even more.  I always think of Matrix when I think of this issue... how facial recognition and computer surveillance guarded every human being...and it's the same theme in lots of movies.  Computers, cameras, and time... they don't cost as much as human surveillance use to... and aren't always noticed.  I liked the film loop in the movie SPEED, too... showing that they can be manipulated, too.  It's a legal problem that hasn't been solved yet... how much to rely on computer-generated evidence.

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In the battle between good and evil, GOD and Satan, love and hate, it is hard to endure the hardships the Bible tells us are part of being human, and are going to come into our lives, and we must find a way to overcome.  No one likes to hurt.  When we hurt, we try to make sure someone else hurts, too.  I have had to work through this myself.  I don't know if I will ever reach the status of being Christ-like, as we are suppose to become. 

The Bible says this world has been released into the hands of Satan, for a time.  That means we will suffer, even when we are good people, do good things, and don't deserve it.  There is no easy answer to what is wrong with our world and how to make it better.  Salvation creates better people, over time, but it doesn't solve every problem in humanity.

I have been praying about situations in my own life for a long time.  It is hard to see evil win small battles and think it has won the war.  It is hard not to be able to change the status quo.  It is hard to see your loved ones make wrong choices.  It is hard to endure the consequences of our mistakes, but it is even harder to endure when we haven't done anything to deserve our suffering. 

In this conflict between the forces of evil and our lives, we have to find a way through, regain our balance, and continue on. When I pray, I may not get the answer I want, but I know God is still busy with the details of our existence.  He is making prophecy come true, He is trying to save as many souls as possible, He is doing what is best for the bigger picture of existence.  I may suffer, the people I care about may suffer, and the cause is not always GOD.

I guess documentaries remind me that problems we face as humanity are consequences of the ongoing battles between good and evil, and our choices about which side we are on. 

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May GOD help us to see the impact of our choices.
May we find the courage to do what is right.
May our lives focus on God rather than money.
May our hopes be in having enough, not in having more than we need.
May our government not become our enemy.
May GOD provide for those who love Him and trust Him and sacrifice for Him.
May time help us to change.
May we find ways to rectify our wrong choices and the effects they have on others.
May freedom continue to exist in America, and the world.
May we face our global challenges with honesty and courage.
May life last long enough to reach our best goals.
Amen.

14 September, 2017

14 September 2017

I was watching NBR and they had a segment on San Francisco wanting to tax robots because they take away jobs... desperate government... beware!  The people discussing the topic were also wondering how this would work... what would be next... how they can justify this approach.  I think we need to get rid of all taxes except ONE... and sales tax is the only one that would apply equally to all income levels.  TEN percent, maximum, forever.  The government would have to learn how to budget, and they wouldn't be able to bargain for votes... maybe... but it would also tie every decision they make to the health of the economy.

I write about this when I can... I'm sure it is somewhere in my blogs, and on Facebook, and on Twitter, and.... who knows where else.

Imagine no income taxes or property taxes or estate taxes or capital gains taxes or foreign taxes or lots of other taxes... many I don't even know about.  It would mean a seriously reduced government payroll... and office overhead... and policing.  I suppose the government would still be able to investigate businesses, but personal lives would be more free.  No reporting, the business would be linked to the government... no receipts, records, etc.  No need for tax incentives, subsidies, limits on your retirement accounts, sudden incomes, expenses, dependents, and....  You pay your tax bill when you buy something, it gets adjusted when you return something, the government shares the collected funds equally (federal, state, county) and international costs get their own 1%.  Everyone pays the same amount... no more fighting over loopholes, rich and poor, middle class, etc.

I get more convinced it is the best future for America (and everyone else, eventually) every time I think about it.

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Rain is coming this weekend and staying for awhile!  Today I started cleaning up all my piles of yard debris by different areas.  What a big job, tiring, and more than I expected... but, I am going to do as much as I can before the rain gets here.  It will be nice to see what it does for the plant life, and if we still have a small river passing through our yard still... :-)  The groundwater here is something I have never seen before in my entire life.  I'm waiting to see what it does this winter.

Part of the area I am cleaning out is a path where the water is suppose to go... pre-sewers, it runs in gullies, downhill, in large and small amounts that depend on the rain.  The area has well water, so when I first saw how much water came above ground, I thought it must be from a full well.  I know nothing about these things... no real details, just big picture concepts from city life.

I think we need to make this problem work for us... make little pools of water for the gardens and animals, create electricity from water wheels or something like that, maybe a water-feature for the beautiful effect it has.  :-)  I love water features.

Last winter the chicken cage was in a spot away from the broken pipe area in the yard, which was blamed for everything involving water.  The poor chicken had clean feet even when it didn't want them... I never saw a chicken with feet like that... and when I had to pick it up for some reason, it was so strange.  The chicken space has moved now, so I am wondering how they will do this winter.

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The weekend is near.  There's a list of things to do.  I'm working on how to get it all done.

My FIMO projects are coming along.  I have been filing them down and they are beginning to look really good.  I am getting excited.  Once I have the process figured out, it will be easier to get them done, faster.  I will spend more time on pre-bake details so I don't have to fix the designs after baking.

My salt dough efforts are beginning to figured out.  I see painting as one of the issues for these possible products.  I may tackle that this weekend... maybe.

I want to mail an auction donation to OREGON RIGHT TO LIFE for their annual auction, and that has to be done soon.  I am trying to get something finished and mailed to them by the 20th or 21st.  I am not sure I will make it, but I am trying to see what I can make that would be good for their auction, within my meager talents, developing skills, and limited supplies.  :-)   I can do this!

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Well, the terror of the hurricanes is leaving our attention span and other tragedies are replacing it... another school shooting, government debt ceilings and walls around our borders, elderly people dying needlessly while being housed across the street from a hospital... that's all I can remember right now.

You have heard a goldfish has a longer attention span than we do... sad, don't you think?!  Sesame Street has been blamed for that pathway.  Now it is technology... or maybe technology just encourages it.

I read my book one chapter at a time... as a daily goal... do you think that counts as a short attention span?

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Time to go.
Enjoy your weekend.
Spend time with your loved ones.
Give to as many needs as you can afford to give to.

In Christ,
Deborah Martin

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May God bless our efforts to care for each other.
May life be good to us, and may we be good because of it.
Help the world to slow down, to enjoy the people that matter.
May our goals be God's goals for us.
Amen.